Friday, January 20, 2012

long day and its not even noon!!!

Today I am having a bad day.... Its just not a good day... I'm upset but I REALLY don't want to talk about it. Too many people have asked me if I was okay... I'll be fine! Like I said just a bad day.... very bad but I'll be fine after a good nights sleep and a little time away from... my stress.

I watched "The girl with the dragon tattoo" yesterday after being upset most of the day... it was a good movie but I'm still processing it I guess... I didn't know it was three hours long and when it was over it took me and my friend a long time to get home because of weather and a pretty bad accident on the main road. We had to take the back roads to get home.... I got home in time to go to bed -_-; ugh.... Yesterday kinda sucked....

This whole week kinda sucked... I think I'll sleep through tomorrow.... what a waste.....

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Well.... Today was an okay day...

Well I feel pretty good about how today went :) I think the portfolio check in went rather well :) I will be updating my work stuff soon so a few fairly good drafts of papers and some finished ones will be up soon.
We also got our walden hoodies today!!!! :DDDDD I'm so happy!!!

So I have recently been reintroduced to a tv series I used to watch when I was younger and I have decided to make it a new blender project so just wait and see my model for jenny XJ-9 wakeman from "My life as a teenage robot" :D I'll leave a few pictures of what she looks like so you'll know who I'm talking about.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I'm swamped and being yelled at!

Some people seem to think what I'm doing is easy and that I'm wasting time "playing on the computer" I'm NOT "playing" what I do is what I plan to do in collage and for a living after collage! All day I've been working away to try and make my portfolio up to par or at least as close as I can! I was just yelled at and accused of skipping school to play on the computer. NO I've not been messing around I have been working hard to get things done. I try really hard to balance school and what little work I do have with being a good friend and a good girlfriend.... normal people would not have too much trouble with this but I am no normal person... I have depression issues as well as many other issues with other things... I am not making excuses I'm just asking for a little recognition as a hard working girl! I do not deserve to be yelled at for WORKING ALL DAY!!! -_-; so that is my rant of the day.... ugh sooo much stress.... that I don't need...

Lots to catch up on...

So portfolios are due in like a day and I'm doing ok but I hope to get a lot more done by then or at least show that I'm working on something (and am not a waste of time and space -_-; )

I can't really show the steps of how I'm making this little glass thing in blender with pictures so I'm just going to write about it here to try and show how difficult it is for me to figure out on my own (-_-) ugh....

Well I decided a martini glass would be fairly simple to figure out so I started with that in mind. I simply placed a mesh cone upside down on a mesh rectangle and "extruded" (pulled the material) at the bottom of the rectangle down into a base. That was the easy part. I then had to figure out how to make the shape see through and shiny like real glass. Through mostly testing what buttons and settings do what, I learned how to change the transparency and mirror to fit what I was looking for. This took much longer because the lighting was hard to move to a spot that would really show off the glint of glass. I think more things in the background will help. I just added part of a glass box around the glass to show the effects more efficiently. I am currently working on making a little umbrella and testing the liquid simulation for some more practice :)

In other news my grandmother is getting crazier and crazier each day and it's really starting to get to me... But I'm sure I'll be fine :) something like this had to happen sometime... as sad as it is...

So all in all I'm working hard and learning what I need but also what I really want to learn. Oh walden where would I be without you? Dying in public school ;P

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Happy birthday to me!!! XP

So the holidays are done and it's technically my birthday now :D yay January 3!!!!! Lots of fun stuff going up soon on deviant art and even possibly YouTube :D I'm excited and you should be too!!!!

Lots to rant about but that will have to wait till later cause I actually have to try and sleep :p