Saturday, December 7, 2013

So wow I need to post more!

Well... where to start?
I had my bag stolen at work, I worked super long hours at work this past week and I've been sick for almost that whole time. BUT I'm starting to turn all of that around and get things back in order! (I'm trying to dwell less on the bad things and focus on the good so this is short!)

The good news is I'm in a very good mood because I should be able to pay quite a bit towards my Runzi suit! I'm also Happy about THE X-MAS SEASON!!! I couldn't send any money this week towards my suit because I spent a little too much on christmas stuff. Oops! Well at least I have some stuff for the family!

I say x-mas because as people like to make this holiday a religious one I do not and I'm not fond of why a certain well known religion chose this date as one to celebrate someone's unbirthday( yes un-birthday, watch alice in wonderland for the reference). If you want to argue this then go elsewhere as I wont chat about that here. I SAY ALL OF THIS because I LOVE this holiday! It means the world to me because it's a big family thing at my house. We all get together and make amazing memories! I'll talk about this a ton and have pictures for you later!

I'm super glad I'm working and able to make money! I'm trying to reteach myself to be more positive lately because of the three fold law and some other new information I've been shown. I have depression so I think this will be a quite useful weapon in my fight with it. xp

I think I'll start by keeping a journal... This blog itself is a bit like one but I'm not quite as personal about things here....

Anyway! I'm back again and I hope to post more (I know I say this a lot I'm sorry!). I'll be updating some things soon I hope!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Hey everyone! I'm back!

Hey last time I posted was the day after Halloween so I think it's far past time for an update!

Things are still a little rough but the good news is my job starts this Friday! That might not seem like a big deal but it definitely is! I haven't been able to save any money to put towards my Runzi fursuit and that is the not so bad side of things. O.o I'm just going to be happy working full time for a while and having some money to save!

Also Ry'thal has almost got a pretty nice job, just have to wait and see if everything checks out, so things are looking up!

I have still got quite a list of things to do for people but hopefully I'll have them done soon and be on to some art trades I've been wanting to do!

Also when I know the links are up and everything is working I'll post a bit about the pathfinder D&D thing Ry'thal is working on! It's not really pathfinder but it works off of some of the same books and principles.

So in short things are looking up and I'm pretty excited!

Friday, November 1, 2013

Halloween fun! (fursuiting, trick-or-treat with friends, and handing out candy!)

So we ended up giving out some candy to kids at my boy friends house and then started out on our Halloween adventures!
This was my costume for greeting the trick-or-treaters! (I was a witch obviously!)
(the feet are just silly monster slippers until I can afford real feetpaws for Empire but they are still very cute!)

Ry'thal also suited up to answer the door a few times but the rain made for a lot less candy traffic. We still had a great time being silly and dorky as we usually are!

After that we went back to our local area and looked for my friends who we were supposed to meet up and trick-or-treat with but we never did find them! XD
We looked for a while and met a couple of people I knew before we bumped into a rather large group of loud kids who all happened to know me and as soon as one of them saw me they all immediately ran screaming into me. I knew who it was who tackled me so I wasn't worried but the funny part was the entire group wanted to say hi! I felt very loved! Hahaha I'm really glad we ran into them because we eventually just went door to door with them instead of our other friends!

If any of them read this I love you guys! XD You are all hilarious and amazing people to be around!

We have a wind advisory that started at like six this morning and goes into tomorrow so I had to ditch my hat and dress for running around outside (also had to ditch the silly feets for shoes that would keep out moisture a bit better). I did keep the cape on and many people really loved Empire!

I had a Ton of really great reactions from people! I even had a young Indian couple ask me for a picture! They had the worlds cutest little girl with the biggest brown eyes! She was a little afraid of me though. ^_^;
I only had three "what does the fox say" references tonight so that isn't too bad! XD
I did get a lot of "costume of the night!" comments though which is funny because I'm kind of cheating XD oh well!

I really had a great night hanging with my friends and my boyfriend. I loved being Empire on Halloween! I really wish we had better weather but it has been way way worse in past years. Overall I'm really happy! Feel free to comment and chat with me about fun Halloween stuff or anything else! HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVEYONE!!! Xp

Thursday, October 31, 2013

So I'm pretty excited for Halloween!

I'm not going to know what we are doing for Halloween until we wake up a little later (It's late!) but I'm still excited!

This may be one of the first years I don't freeze my butt off! It's quite cold out recently but it's only supposed to rain and not snow at least! xp

My boyfriend and I might go up to the outdoor market place to suit with our friends or if they're busy we might just suit around the local area and see who we run into! Although if it does rain we might have to hang out inside and do some kind of tiny chat with anyone else who isn't out and about!

No matter what happens I will have pictures of it!

I Am very excited to be running around as a silly huskaroo doge for Halloween! XD 

I'm sure at some point in the day or night I'll also be celebrating a little wicca but I'm not sure if I'll talk about that more or not...

ALSO! I did decide on a costume for Empire! She will be going as a cute little witch! At least unless I change my mind... But I do have more costume for a witch than anything else... (can't imagine why! XD )
Decisions, decisions!

Monday, October 28, 2013

LOL NOPE! Sorry everyone!

Hahaha I was going to post pictures of my suit but I need the laundry to be finished first XD oops!
I'm hoping to get some work done this week on my commissions and get them all caught up! But I also what to do a Halloween picture before Thursday and figure out who I'll be hanging with! xp I hope I can hang with some local furs and do a little trick or treating!

I'm thinking of pushing myself more and once I get the commissions done and posting one art piece a day for like a month and seeing how that goes XD I'm also going to make premade yarn tails to action off or simply sell... Not sure which yet!

Been playing scribblenuats!

Hahaha I really like it so far! I have a ways to go before I review it and eventually I'll be doing some kind of videos! I'm not sure what yet.

I've been playing unlimited and I think my favorite part about it is adding adjectives... Like making mean things nice and such. Also I've very much customized my character! XD

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Lot's of stress lately

I'm not really sure what is stressing me so much or if maybe it's a combo of different things... I'm just hoping to find a cure for it soon!

Also I really hope our friends can come visit for Halloween! I still haven't decided what Empi is going as yet.... I'll put up a poll and see what you guys think!

I have to go clean but I hope to put something awesome up tomorrow!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

My first visit!

So today was my first day visiting Walden since I graduated. I have to say it was really great to see everyone  but it was also sad. I really missed them but they have changed so much. I'm not sure if for the better or not but I hope things get better. I really wish the people we thought were going to be great would have stayed...

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Cleaning and working away!

I'm pretty happy with myself today because I really got some stuff done! I finished some sketches and I'm putting them up on my FA really soon. I hope I can do a little more later on the badges I owe and the ref sheet I keep having trouble with. I really should be better at keeping up with it all! I need to get this stuff done and work on some other stuff I can do faster and better. X_x We also cleaned the room today! :D

I'm also super excited about my suit still and still have no money to send to her and I should really get her some money! GAHH I need to work! I'll have to find something before I work at teddy bear again.....
The more of her suits I see being done the more I get excited to see her make mine! I will at some point talk about the suit but I'm not quite sure how I wan to do it....

Also check out my poll and help me decide what to post! Feel free to comment!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Rant of the day! More fursona problems!

Now I know it wasn't too long ago that I posted about the fursonas but it has come up again. This time much worse.

I found a fellow who had, and I'm not exaggerating, thirty five "fursonas". Yep.... I'm just going to post what I wrote in my fa journal (which is a true rant so I'm a little less polite!):

Yeah you read that right. I just accidentally played "Detective" onto a furs page who had 35 fursonas. Just fursonas.

They then had a whole list of "other characters" that was like 20 characters long.

then another complete for ponies that had at least ten.......

Almost all of their art was porn as well...... almost all, like they would have two pictures instead of three pages is safe for work mode was on.

Well guys, I have met the walking embodiment of the kind of fur I hate and never want to deal with. I don't say this lightly either. 

I found their page because they were causing a lot of trouble to a fursuit maker a few years back and I wanted to see if they ever got the suit they bitched so much about. It looks like they put up a huge stink over nothing and never got the suit but the art they had and the "fursonas" they had.....

Lets just say I haven't blocked an account and connecting accounts so fast in my life! Joking but not really.

I wouldn't care so much but 35 is excessive and just dumb. I understand one or two maybe three fursonas to really play up each character but if you have 35 different sides I probably already want nothing to do with you. How can you possibly care as much as you should about your fursona about 34 other characters at the same time. I could have this person wrong but from the stupid things they had posted and the *ahem* "fursonas" that they had I wanted nothing to do with them and blocked them before I started drama... bleh! 

I just feel that you can't have that many "fursonas" and have any of them be your actual fursona let alone all of them at once. It feels like this person wants as many characters as possible so they never have to settle on one and they call them all fursonas because of what I was talking about the last time I talked about this. 

I feel like this person uses fursona to describe any character that has any traits that even resemble traits they themselves have and this is simply stretching the word to cover ones own insecurities. I honestly think this person is very self centered or they wouldn't identify with so many characters so easily... I also think they make characters just to have characters of different species and colors so they always have something to draw instead of being a little more creative.

I only bring this up because their "fursonas" all have like three alter egos which are pretty much "Nina" "Nina evil" "Nina hoe" and other similar things that are almost redundant. I suppose I would be less critical if they weren't "fursonas" but were just characters because that's what they seem like. They could also use better names as some of them were BAD, like Egypt the Egyptian bad.... I just think this person could do a lot better but then I think of the big stink they put up and think I'm probably giving them too much credit.

I also have a problem with people who only have porn of their fursona(s). This person had an abundance of that. :/ I get that people like the roll playing side of it and such but this is a little ridiculous.

I guess I should put this under "furries ruin everything" even being furry x.x but it just upset me to think about how much my Runzi means to me and see this joker use the term on so many characters that probably don't mean anything but porn entertainment for them. I'm sure the character at the top of the list was probably their ACTUAL fursona but for whatever reason they felt they needed 34 others to fill some void. All I wish is that people would really respect the term fursona and not abuse the privilege of expressing oneself. It's like when assholes protest funerals because they "Have the right to", yes you do but you're completely abusing it like the douche nozzle you are! Whatever I need to stop yammering on about it and just move on.

Ok I think I'm about done... I'm only writing this to vent frustration so don't take this personally anyone! I'm just dumbfounded and saddened mostly :/ BLEH! I'll stop being a butt now!

oh well can't win them all X.x  "

This is exactly what I wrote and exactly how I feel. Many people commented saying that 35 was too much and that there were too many to be true fursonas. A fursona should be a very special character that really represents you as a person. I think this quote is a great example of what I'm trying to say!

"I think people have one sona that really is the animal embodiment of them, and then every one after that they lose a little bit of themselves when they have so many sonas, or honestly just dont know who they are."    -Saber Glo

I also feel that many of these "fursonas" were not well planned characters either. If you have ten "fursonas" and each one has multiple characters that are the fursona with a different trait then you don't have full characters.

Fursonas by default are usually well thought out characters because they are based off of real people with real traits and real characteristics. Fursonas tend to have faults as well as things they excel at based on a real person. This makes them very strong characters. This person had many versions of their characters to fit various descriptions instead of well thought out characters with pros and cons.

Not everyone has just one sona but I feel like it's easy to just have another character instead of really fleshing out the one you have.

I just think this person could do a lot better with less, but I may have to high hopes. People have the right to do what they want but I have the right to not like it and not be around them.

Feel free to comment with your thoughts! :3

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Let's chat about unoriginal pokemon! Rant of the day!

So the newest pokemon game just came out (x&y) and I hear even more whining about "unoriginal pokemon". People like to complain about pokemon like this:
Because "It's a sword how unoriginal!" but wait a minute I think this is pretty cool! It looks like some kind of cursed sword type of pokemon! That's really neat!

People need to stop complaining about unoriginal pokemon because there is no such thing! SURPRISE! There just isn't. If there was such a thing more people would complain about any of these "original" gen 1 pokemon:

A pokeball pokemon. (That evolves into a upside down pokeball pokemon.)


A rat named raticate.

Ekans.... Snake backwards, Turns into Arbok.... Kobra? oh cobra I get it!

There is nothing wrong with the new pokemon (or the old ones!) you all just want to whine about it! Stop being stupid and just play the game!

If we didn't have new pokemon we wouldn't have to cute and cool new ones either. There's nothing your whining will do about it except leave you with no one to complain to, so at least let the rest of us play in peace!

End rant! I'm just so sick of hearing this over and over you know? jeez! Anyway feel free to comment and follow the site or join it for more silly rants about silly things!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Hanging out in new york! Site update!

I'm visiting some family in new york with my parents and my boyfriend! I missed them something awful! We went to a great Chinese place (like we usually do!) and are now hanging out on the couch chatting :)

I'm really glad we wet on this trip! I really needed a little time away from the house.

I'm also going to use this time to play video games to tell you about the new things I've added to this blog!

  • I updated the pages and will be doing more! Empire has her own page and I'll be updating a new page for my stuff!
  • I updated my poll and would love for you to check that out and tell me what you'd like to see!
  • I added the "What is furry?" page
  • Not quite an update but my wikifur is on there!
So thanks for reading my stuff and I hope you stick around! XD Feel free to comment!

Learn your lingo! Fursona!

Ok so in an earlier post I described furry and talked about it a little (also I have added a page on my blog that is a copy of the post so others don't need to look for it!). In the post (and page) I talk a little bit about what a "fursona" is (and before you read any more I would suggest looking at either of those!). This s also a bit of a rant in parts!

Now in the fandom there are a wide variety of furs (What furries call other furries) who all have different opinions and such which is normal for any group, but another normal thing for a group with mostly undefined terms is the fact someone will use those terms without knowing what they mean. Today I will be talking mostly about "fursona" and how people don't seem to know what it means.

I think this is perfect for what I mean!

Fursona and the use of it:
Well fursona means something different for everyone but is usually defined as a persons way of defining themselves. It's a bit like "if i was turned into an anthropomorphic animal right now what would I be?" and can be chosen/ figured out in many ways.

For instance, Runzi has been the animal/artistic representation I have used to portray myself since my grade school days. She became what she is now during middle school where I didn't have many roll models I liked and so she became everything I am and everything I wanted to be. She still is that way, in more ways than one she is "more me" than even I am most days. I often even think what would she be doing about this situation. She found me through my art and my friends and is a combination of things I like and what makes me, me!

Many people have made their fursona in similar ways and we all have a very strong connection to our fursonas. Knowing why your fursona is what he/she is can also be a good way of looking at yourself and who you are as a person! Sadly this great term is, by many peoples standards, used the wrong way.

Some people use the term as if to describe every character they make that has any traits like them. They usually have more than one or two "fursonas" and  have very little in common with them. I've even heard of a fur who would change her ENTIRE character to match her significant other every time she started a new relationship. There are more than a few things wrong with this.
1. if you can change everything about your character even its species more than once or twice every few years then chances are this character is not your fursona (this is different if you haven't found your fursona yet). If the character means so little to you that these changes can be made so easily it is also probably not your fursona.
2. if you change everything about who you are to be with someone chances are you'll be in a lot of relationships before anyone sticks around. (be yourself or your simply being fake and fake is not appreciated in a fandom that loves people feeling safe enough to be themselves or anywhere else for that matter). So as far as I can tell this person had a lot of issues with being herself and not what she thinks others want her to be.

People in the fandom need to realize that having multiple characters is good and very helpful for stretching your creative muscles! Have a true fursona (or two maybe three) and as many characters as you could possibly want!

I have many characters and only one is my fursona, the rest are characters that I like or portray parts of who I am but not all of me at once. for instance, Empire is my more open and child like character because that is a part of me I don't normally portray. I challenge myself to really become her when I put the suit on or play some of my games. (I have characters made of her in furcadia and feral heart!) She isn't really me but can be linked with a part of me. I love her a ton but Runzi is just more me!

Now I know some people have legitimate multiple fursonas and that is great, but those people are not who I'm talking about. Many people just don't seem to understand the word and simply use it for everything that has a trait that even resembles a trait they have.

SO in short know your lingo! If you want to add or contradict anything I've said feel free to comment! XD Thanks for reading!

Empire plays minecraft! (A fursuit adventure!)

I forgot that I haven't posted this! I played minecraft in fursuit! It's pretty simple and silly! If you wait until after the credits you'll see even more silliness! (also the silly Kitty dragon in the background is Ry'thal!)

I don't play many games these days but I'm glad I did this! I like playing minecraft and I'm sure I'll do another lets play like this one when I get the chance. I'm thinking of doing a fall weather video and would love to know what you guys think! Feel free to comment! and check out my poll!

Also if you like my stuff and want to get updates feel free to follow me and join this site!

(expect many more video's like this when I get Runzi! XD )

Friday, October 18, 2013

Rant of the day! Is helping people becoming bad?

There's this weird phenomenon going on that I just don't completely get. People are getting upset because people who are not trans*/gay/ any other oppressed people are supporting oppressed people. I understand that not all publicity is good publicity but with every person who tries to stand with them there are people being angry about it. WHAT?? WHY???

THE PEOPLE YOU NEED TO CHANGE THE MINDS OF ARE NOT A PART OF YOUR COMMUNITY! or you wouldn't have to change their minds! The oppressors need to see that what they are doing is wrong and people like them can persuade them more easily! Movements need support of others! Let others help you and it wouldn't be as much of a struggle. Not all "support" is good but many people have good intentions and truly want to help you so work with them and let them help!

You attract more flies with honey than vinegar and be nice to those who are doing you no harm. Also many "supporters" need to know what is helpful and harmful to speak about. You may be doing more harm than good if you meant it that way or not! Be mindful and educated!

ok end rant but I'm sure this will come up again...

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Dungeons and dragons and Runzi, oh my!

Well I have been playing D&D with my cousin and Ry'thal recently. (for those of you who play we were playing on pathfinder!) I sadly just don't get into it as much as they do and I wish it was a little more larp like... But I still have fun! I have to have a lot of things done by them because I've only played a few times. I think things will get better. I usually try to make my character Runzi but so far it's not compleatly her... hopefully I can make her in the game Ry'thal is making now...

Furry warning!
I will put this on all things I put up that don't have much to do with furry things so people don't have to read if they don't want to!

I REALLY WANT TO LARP AND PLAY D&D IN SUIT! I've worn Empi a few times for this but it's not the same :/ I think it's mostly a want to do tons of fun things in suit but I'm not sure XD I think it would be super fun to dress in period clothing and wear my suit to larps and renaissance stuff! I worry that Empire will break in a larp though....

Empire Plays Outside! A fursuit adventure (part 2)

I said I'd post it so here it is!
PART 2!!!! This is why silly huskaroos should't have cameras!

Not much to say about it that I haven't already said! *NO HUSKAROOS WERE HARMED IN THE MAKING OF THIS VIDEO!* Hahaha enjoy!

Feel free to comment here or there! If you have an idea of something fun for me to do in suit I'm all ears!

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Empire Plays Outside! A fursuit adventure! (part 1)

So here it is! I made this not too long ago with the help of my Necodrale! I'll be posting part two here tomorrow!
This was a quick video I did to update Empires pages including her youtube and the second video is the silly stuff we did while I was still being a Huskaroo but I had the camera!

Hope you guys like it and feel free to comment here or on the video!

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Commissioning a fursuit!

So this is a great video by Kuhori and Graves that points out really important stuff you need to look at when deciding on a fursuit maker! I've made a couple of lists here that adds and goes over a lot of what they said. Watch the video it's worth it! Also their other videos are amazing too!

Things fursuit makers should know! (short list to be posted again with more info later!)

1. SEW SEW SEW! Fursuits need to be durable! look into what stitch is used for what part of a suit and use it! DO NOT glue the seams of any part of the suit.

2. Don't cut corners. If it's going to be a little over a deadline then tell the person that and take the time! It's much worse to get a bad review because you cut corners and the customer had problems than if you missed a deadline making sure the product was up to par!

3. symmetry is very important! People will notice and they wont be happy if it's not how it's supposed to be!

4. MARKINGS they need to be right. triple check with the person and make sure their ref is up to date!

5. if you have seen a design like the one you've been asked to make on another character or suit check with the commissioner on it! people do not enjoy when characters are "stolen" or copied. (yes the commissioner should already have looked int characters to make sure they haven't copied but sometimes it's a hard thing to check)

Things a fursuit buyer should know and look for when commissioning a suit! (also to be added to later)

1. know your character! have a ref of them and make sure little details are explained! If a maker misses something because you sent the wrong ref that's your fault!

2. Take a look at how suits are made! This will give you a good indication as to what things can easily be messed up! This will help you know what you're looking for in a suit! Like you will know if you want moving jaws or "follow me eyes" or realistic or toony! Looking into these makes sure you know exactly what your getting! (Also this should show you how hard these are to make and how you shouldn't bother the maker too much about your suit before it's your turn on their list!)

3. READ REVIEWS! Not just on the makers you are interested in but other makers as well. These will show you mistakes others have made in making suits and things that were super helpful to other suiters! like "the stitching on it fell apart, they should have used a ___ stitch instead" or "they put a pocket in the tail for me so I can get to my phone!"

4. MAKE SURE YOU HAVEN'T STOLEN A DESIGN!!!! Do your research before choosing a design! This is a very important point that Kuhori and Graves said quite a bit about it and they are very right! It really sucks to argue with someone who didn't check their facts and stole your design (intentionally or on accident). But if someone has stolen your design then you have to speak to them about it and be polite because they may have simply not seen yours! GET CREATIVE you can be anything, don't just be something because other people are!(I even know a fursuiter who is a purple platypus! Her fursuit is amazing!)
(You don't want to steal a fursona or any other character because you have no idea how much that character can mean to someone!)

5. Mind your budget! If you can't afford a suit at the moment wait until you can! (I'm in a little trouble because of this myself! NOT FUN) It is amazing but not if it's going to break the bank!

So I hope this was helpful to you! I hope more people get fursuits because you can never have enough! XD
Thanks for listening and watching and please feel free to comment and ask me questions if you have any!

Let's talk about Empire and other fursuit reviews!

So this video is a small review because most places that do fursuit reviews do not allow second hand suits to be reviewed. Which is dumb but I understand why... sort of. Anyway! I love Empire but fursuit makers should avoid some of the problems this suit has when making a fursuit. Also the maker commented on this and I'm not trying to bash her or anything just stating some stuff she could have done better.

I love reading and watching fursuit reviews and I think they are crucial to look at when deciding on a fursuit maker! Now most reviews are on older suits and shouldn't make or break your decision they are still a good indicator of things you should look into! I'll put up a post in a little while about things you should know when getting a suit and things makers should look into!

Video games!!!

So I've been playing some video games recently! I recently received a new Miku hatsune game project diva F! I've also fallen into the pokemon hype but I can't afford a 3DS so I've been playing Zeta instead!

So Pokemon zeta.... so far I like many of the things you can do in it and I'm sure there are many more fun things to do that I haven't discovered yet.... but that's the problem, I've been playing for seven hours and I'm barely past the first gym.... in the first town.... I love the detail and the game is really made for the fans but I hope when they get out of beta leveling up pokemon will be a little easier! I've bearly been able to get anywhere and it's becoming tedious!

I really like the look of pokemon x and y though. I might buy a 2DS and get it but untill then I'll just have to wait!

Monday, October 14, 2013


So this is what I've been waiting to talk about! I have very big news! I just posted a big thing about what the fandom is and what each part of it is and fun stuff like that so that even if you don't really know much about furries this post and others after it will make more sense and I hope you will all be excited with me!

So the big news is....... dun dun DUN! I'M GETTING A RUNZI SUIT!!!! YAAAAAAY!
I am so excited! I can't even imagine! I love Empire and I'm not going to stop using her but to put it plainly she isn't me, But Runzi is! Runzi is more me than even I am sometimes and I really can't wait to bring her to life! So you won't see less of Empire you'll just see more of Runzi!
So far I'll only be getting her head for now but if I have the money I will be getting paws or maybe a partial! I'm very very excited about this because I'm getting her from one of my personal favorite makers OMGPineapples!
You can find info on them here(fa page): Click me! or here(actual website): Click me!

If you have seen my blog before you may have seen this lovely lady (Gale Frostbane owned and worn by nexus folf) who was made by the very same maker!
See Gale's FA page here: Click me!!
I have tried Gale's head on before and she was a joy to wear! Many of our friends who suit agree that Gale is wonderfully well made! I am very excited to have a suit from the same maker!

So to sum things up I'M BEYOND EXCITED!!! I really hope I can get my stuff together in time to get Runzi before my birthday! She's supposed to be done near the end of December early January So if I can pay for her a little earlier than that I can have her here before my birthday and do something special! Although to be honest I don't care when I get her as long as I do get her! XD I'm sure you'll see many posts of me freaking out about this suit and how happy and excited I am!

What is furry?

So I realized that I never covered this topic and I talk about it a lot! I will now attempt to explain some stuff in a helpful way but feel free to comment with questions!

Furry fandom?
Now I am a part of the furry fandom, this means I love animals and the study of anthropomorphic animals. This means I love to see art of many types showing what animals would look like if they were more like people. For instance if they walked on two legs and talked. The amazing art and creativity in this fandom is overwhelming, I have been in many fandoms and I will dare to say none of them can compare in many ways to this one. (also fandom basically means group of people that are fans of something)
The dark side!
There is a dark side to the fandom but most of us really don't like that side and are not a part of it! Furries get a bad rap for the dumb people in the fandom but I promise you most of us are not like that!
This is all I'm going to say about it here.

Almost person in the fandom has some sort of creature that is a complete representation of themselves in almost every way, this character is them and as such is called their "fursona" (persona with fur instead of per, clever I know) People will usually commission art of their character and some even get costumes to dress up as said character! These characters are more than just a cool thing to do for most of the fandom, for most of us they are us in everyway and sometimes even more "us" than we are. The character allows us to truly be ourselves without judgment (everyone has some type of character so they don't judge others as much!).

quick lingo check in! I am a furry, my character is not, my character is a Fursona or a character. So Runzi is my fursona, Empire is a character I play, and I am the furry. Runzi and empire are not furries, they are characters I draw and act as.
(I mostly add this because it's very strange for people in the fandom to hear things like "that's a nice furry you have there" it's even stranger to hear it from someone in the fandom themselves)

These elaborate and very meaningful costumes are called "fursuits" or shortened to just "suits". Most fursuiters really try to become the character they play while wearing the suit and when one has to take off a paw or a head to do something it is called "breaking the magic" and is severely frowned upon in public by other members of the fandom (basically if your going to fursuit do it right and respect the fact you've become a performer for others also don't ruin some poor kids day by being caught out of character). At conventions and closed furry gatherings it is less of a problem but is still rather frowned upon. Many people will be told off at conventions for breaking the magic because there are separate rooms specifically set aside for them to de-suit and cool of in.(affectionately called headless lounges!)

Fursuit facts! 
Fursuits are tremendously expensive because every suit is different, custom made, and usually compleatly tailored to a specific person! They range in price from around $600 to $3,000 and up.
Most suits are very durable and should be for that price!
There are just as many female fursuiters as male if not more. (Not all of us are dudes thanks!)
They have giant blind spots! Most of them are very hard to see out of so don't be sad if they don't see you wave!
They can get very hot very quickly! Just inside of one fursuiters head after being worn for less than an hour was above 100 degrees! (if they make gestures like they are too hot they might not stop for pictures)
They are (mostly) quite hard to move around in! We bump into things a lot and might not even notice.
Most hand paws (paw like gloves) don't work very well at lifting or articulating things.
Most of these suits are very personal items and very important to the wearer! (Empire means so much to me and she isn't even my fursona!)

IMPORTANT! BEING IN COSTUME DOESN'T MAKE IT ALRIGHT TO GRAB OR HARASS ANYONE! Sadly this needs to be stated! It's true many fursuiters will give you hugs if you want them or take pictures but 99% of them do not touch you unless they know you're ok with it, so don't touch them unless they say it's ok! I say this only so you know that they will be upset most of the time.

I'll probably post more on these subjects but I think this is a nice overview! Like I said if you have any other questions or want me to add anything just let me know! Also if this sounds cool and interesting to you I urge you to contact me and I can show you more of the fandom and help you join in the fun!

(if something is off about this I apologize! It ended up being longer than I thought!)

FURSUIT STUFF!!! (part 1)

Ok so I know many people only come to my blog to see fursuit stuff so I'm going to start talking about that here! Also I'm sure it will come up again later!

So first off I'm going to talk about Empire! YAY! Hahaha I know very surprising! I've done some really fun crazy stuff with her so far!

This one was taken at the Massachusetts Fur Bowl! Not a great picture but it was still cute! I tried the glowstick eye trick! My boyfriend and I had an amazing time out with our friends and spent lots of time hanging out before and after the meet! (if you can get to mass for one of the fur bowls I greatly recommend it!)

Also went to a few local meets and had a ton of fun!

For some reason I can't find any pictures of the most recent meet but when I do you can find them here!
Find everyone's FA pages here:
(also my Ry'thal was too hot this meet to suit up but he still had fun!)

I'm going to put the videos I've made up in another post or maybe each in their own post soon!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Sort post on pets!

So I want to put up pictures of all of our pets so I won't write much here!

But we have three cats, two dogs, two gerbils, four chikens, and a ferret so we have quite the menagerie! Xp

Like I said pictures later!

First off walden

This is a hard one for me because I loved that program so much. It really helped me realize what I was capable of and how to do what I loved to better myself. The Walden project was one of the best things I've ever done and I will never regret it. It really helped me learn who I was and that I would find the right people to be around by honoring who I was. I am very sad that my time there is done and I suppose my last year could have been better but I still had the time of my life.

I worry about what will happen to it now and how it will change. I don't ever want it to end because I know that without it I would have given up on any kind of school and I don't want that opportunity lost to others like me.

I know I will visit and be upset but I know I still need to visit.

So new walden kids watch out because I will tear you a new butt hole if you screw this up for others!

So hi again!

I typed up a big long nicely written piece for you all but it never saved to drafts so I'm pretty pissed at the mobil app.

Anyway I will be writing different post today and tomorrow to get (those who want to be) caught up. Also they will all be categorized by title. So it will say something about fursuiting or walden or whatever in the title so if you don't want to read about it you don't have to (since a lot of this is just for me anyway!).

I'm not sure yet what will come first or even what of these few months I rwally aant to talk about but I'll probably start with walden to get it off my mind then move to art and fursuiting and other madness after that. Hmm I suppose work will fit in there somewhere also... briefly....

Anyway expect that!

Friday, June 7, 2013


So I'm graduating (officially) from high school today.... I'm pretty happy but I don't want to do the ceremony anymore :/ bleh....

I guess I'll write more later...

Friday, May 17, 2013

We are on our way!

So I left school a little early because the teacher I was supposed to be there with was gone. My bf came and got me early so I could finish packing.

So we left a little early, which is good because it will be a little less traffic.

We are headed to new jersey for the weekend to have a good time and hang out. I'm happy that things are getting a little better and starting to calm down.

An awful morning

So nothing is working this morning. Not one thing. Any program I've opened on my computer today has become useless in some way. I tried to make an UTAU video but after the dance finally rendered I realized that it is the short version. WHY IS THAT EVEN A THING??? Oh well... I guess I'll do another song... Nope. UTAU will not play anything without whispering and then yelling at me. What the hell??? YOU WORKED YESTERDAY!!!! Ok well I'll play feral heart for a bit to calm down. Nope won't connect.... I QUIT! Fuck computers.... I didn't even use one to write this. -_-;;; damn what a morning!

Oh and I have a tail to do that I can not work on. And a trip after school that I'm not packed for yet with my boyfriend whos upset with me. Then I get to come home for a night and then leave for mass for a week the next morning.

Not a good day hope things get better. I just want to quit and go back to bed.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

So much to do!

Ok so I'm trying to get a little bit more done on my portfolio but I also have to get a tail commission done because it's very late already (this upsets me because I hate being late for things. Even more so when money is involved).

So I think my research project is going to wait a bit and be one of my three things I can turn in after the due date.... I really just can't finish it tonight.

Bleh! I almost forgot! I have an UTAUloid! I should say that more often because I love her! >.< She has her own blog here(click me!) and I'll be getting back into my MMD UTAU mode soon so she will have more 3D model videos soon! Please check it out!

I'll be writing about salem soon as I will be there for a bit next week! Yay!! ^-^

Monday, May 13, 2013

Summer scares me a bit...

I'm excited for summer and I can't wait to see what will happen but I'm also scared that things wont work out right and I might end up somewhere I don't want to be... I love my boyfriend and I don't think we will be ending anytime soon but I also know that one can never know....

It's scary to think I will be away from my parents and some of my close friends. I've never moved from my house before either...

I think I'm just being depressive because the school years almost over and I'm going to really miss going to walden. Walden is the only reason I care about school and going to college. I also made such a lasting bond with most of the others that I'm just going to be very upset to leave.

thanks for listening :) feel free to comment! More to come that is less depressing than this!

The rush is almost done

My portfolio has come along almost perfectly. I really like most of it and I'm fairly proud so far. I have a few more things to do on it for me to feel it's adiquit. I have until Wednesday to have everything said and done.

I am also very late on some requests and two long due commissions. :) I'm glad people are giving me the time I need to get things done well.

I'm almost done.... That's really a strange concept.... I'll post more a little later if I have time :) thanks for reading!

Monday, May 6, 2013

getting closer....

So the end of this year is getting really close! I'm excited and sad but also super scared... I have no idea what's going to happen after I graduate or where I will be. I'm moving with my boyfriend to pennsylvania for a while but even that isn't set in stone. I really am just focusing on getting the last of everything done before my final portfolio is due. which is next monday. and I'm working all of this week from 4-9:00pm. I have almost no time...

Bleh so I'm stressed and I really wish I could finish some of my other stuff too! I owe a yarn tail to a guy and it's super late already! I really just want to have nothing else on my to-do list...

I'll post pictures later tonight (if I can) of the fursuiting at the school!

Thanks for reading my ramblings! Please feel free to comment!

Friday, May 3, 2013

Fursuiting at my school! :D

I'm fursuiting at my school! XD I get to do it because I'm going to write a paper about peoples reactions to me! :D so far most people have liked it or been confused by it. I've only had a couple people that were scared of me. I'm really strange so a lot of the people that know me were not very surprised. XP

Well so far so good! XD

I'll post pictures later! I'll be updating again soon!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Almost done

So it's late but I wanted to write a quick update!

So I'm really busy lately finishing up high school! I'll be graduating really soon!

I'm also taking way too long to make this pink tail commission ;__; I'm sorry!!!!

My ferret is quite sick and really hates the meds she needs to be on. She actually tried to pull the taste out of her mouth with her paws! Which while cute and made me feel bad ;__; my poor baby!

Also I made up with my friend today... I'm still not sure what to say about that though...

Lots more to come! Including new utau stuff!!!
Feel free to comment! Thanks for listening to me bable! ;p

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

very sick.... Rant of the day!

I was supposed to go camping out at the walden land tonight but I'm sicker than I've been in a long time... I hope that I feel better later today and can still go but I'm not sure yet.
I haven't felt like this in a long time and I would love to not have to run to the bathroom every few minutes...
This sucks! I really hope I can go or at least do something productive! BLEH!

So today's rant is being sick when it's super nice outside and you're supposed to be camping! I hate being sick! I always get sick when cool things are happening! I got my boyfriend sick too so I'm even more upset today.

Monday, April 15, 2013

First Furmeet suiting!

My boyfriend and I went to the local furmeet and fursuited with them for the first time! It was at ECHO! Echo is an amazing place check it out HERE (Echo center VT) !

All the suiters!(In front is Shadau, Left to right in the back is Rally and Ahzlon then Empire and Zak)

Some of us decided to chill out!

and a front shot!

Just my boyfriend and I <3 nbsp="" p="">
Ahzlon and us!

I found a cave! (huskaroo in a hole XD )

and a rocking chair! (That rally corgi fell out of!)

Zak and me again! Making mountains!

A group of us did a furry weather report! I'll have that video linked when it's up!

Shadau (tiger) his FA here
Rally (corgi) her FA here
Ahzlon (cat) his FA here
Empire (huskaroo) my FA here
Rythal (Zak) (Dragon cat) his FA here
our camera people! Thanks guys! obsidianrain125's FA and Dingo's FA and also demonshadow21's FA
I'm not sure who took what picture XD sorry!

Friday, April 12, 2013

So sick and tired of being tired and sick!

I've been sick for over a week now... I'm really just done with all of the sniffles and sore throats, not to mention the headaches. BLEH! Can I be done now please??

I've been having really weird dreams too... I think it's from the overnight cold meds. XD

I had a dream last night that a giant panther/tiger/talking animal thingy was trying to get me! It broke my door! ;__; it was scrry... hur...

I'm working away on portfolio work and I really hope I can get my stuff done. I really need to get my personal finance stuff done so I can stop freaking out about it. Bleh!

I suppose people don't care much about all that stuff so I'll put up some more fursuit pictures XD

Another shot with packinko champ!

Hanging with the statue more XP

Time to go silly huskaroo!


fursuiters(fa pages):
Empire (huskaroo): here
Zak (dragon cat): here
Photographer folf:
Nexus: here

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Rant of the day!

Hey guys I'm back for my rant of the day!

And today's rant is!
People not reading!
That's right guys! People don't read anything these days! When you comment on something I say I expect you to read all of what I say to you. Read before commenting, Read before replying, or don't type anything back. For the last few days I've been trying to get my point across to some other furs and they keep asking me the same things. If you aren't going to read what I have said don't bother writing back.

People who do the above annoy everyone else and are simply being rude. Take the time to read what people want to say to you or don't post! It truly is that simple!

A nice solo spot

I'm trying to post more so this will be more of an actual life blog. xp

So I'm on "solo time" which is where we go to be alone in the woods for a while. Seems like a little thing right? It's so helpful and important! I am currently sitting on my new favorite spot that it up a little tree and on the perfect branch!
I'm trying to make this short because this is not the point of solo but I really just want to express my love for spring and walden and also solo time!

Thanks for reading! I should have my rant up soon! XD

A long day

Today isn't great and I'm not really happy. I don't really know why...

Bleh! I'm sure things will get better xp

I have lots of stuff to do today though!
-work on tail, find ring, finish base
-homework, new paper, research paper
- Fursuit dance video for freak it Friday! XD hahaha this one will be crazy if I get to it!

I'm not sure what song I'll dance to yet so if you have a suggestion I'm open to it! Feel free to leave a comment!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Fursuiting in public! For the first time!

Ok so I will be uploading a ton of pictures to FA later but I wanted to sneak peek some of them here!

Our friend Nexus took my boyfriend and I out public suiting for the first time last sunday! It was amazing! She literally took 100 pictures of us! hahaha I might post more but here are a few:

Quick! Hide behind Champ!

Kids love us! Hahaha

Here's to you huskaroo! While kitty dragons bein' cool B)

What a lovely ski lift :P

We had a great time out and about even though it was quite windy! :P
I hope you liked the pictures! Please feel free to comment and find us on FA

Empire(huskaroo) the black, white, and blue one on FA :Here
Zak(cat dragon) the all black one with horns on FA : Here 
Our camera carrier Nexus who has an amazing suit : Here

Friday, April 5, 2013

Finally fursuiting!

I have a few pictures of my new fursuit Empire! She's a huskaroo (husky kangaroo) and she's adorable! XP
 Just a quick shot of the first time I put Empire on!
 And one of me sitting on my boyfriends couch watching our friends college basket ball game (A big thing for me since I hate most sports).

I'll be shooting another video soon I think but I do have a dance video up! It was not only my first dance video but my first one in suit! I can't get you tube to put up the link because it wont show my video in the search. >_<;
Damn... oh well!

I'll be posting a reaction to the new york trip I took recently with The Walden project! So look for that! Thanks for reading! Also, please feel free to comment and take my poll! :)

Saturday, March 23, 2013

So hectic!

So many things have happened!

First off! I got my first fursuit!!!!!! YAY!!!! XDD
here is the unboxing video:
I can't get the other video to show on this post but if you go through my Empire channel there you will find a shorter video of my first time wearing Empire's full partial!

I also went to NYC for three days last Monday! I'll post some pictures of that in a new post later tonight! :)

Also my boyfriend's suit should be here this Tuesday and I'm so excited to see it!!! XD

I'll try and post more X_x

Thursday, March 14, 2013

New Fursuit! Soon!!!

I'm getting my suit Friday! I'm so excited I could scream! Xp
Her name is Empire and she's a husky kangaroo!

Her new FA can be found here:

I also drew chibis today so you can find them here on my normal FA:

A picture of the suit you say? Why yes!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013


I JUST BOUGHT MY FIRST FURSUIT!!!! She's awesome and she will be here friday!!! XD I am so incredibly excited!!! She's a Husk-a-roo(husky-kangaroo)! she's adorable! I loves her so much!!! GAH I'M SO EXCITED!!!

I'll post pictures soon! I just had to freak out a bit! I'll write a better post tomorrow I think :)

Monday, March 11, 2013

What an awful day!

... And it's only 9am! Already I have been yelled at my my home room teacher (who has quite little intrest in me) for not thinking my highschool email is worth checking, had to explain what gesundheit was to a high school senior, and listen to the same "what a great game that was" drable from every student. So today is really not going so well for me at a school I already hate with every part of my soul. I'm so glad I go to walden or I may have seriously injured someone today.

Ok I'm going to explain myself a bit here...
1. The teacher and the school email.
My home room teacher is the school art teacher. All I ever do is draw and this woman has never wanted to talk to me about it. Not once has she even mentioned it, even when I draw in front of her. So it's really hard for me to care much about things that go on in home room. Now I have only ever logged in to my school email twice. I have never missed things that were important school wise because of this, but NOW it's a huge deal?? What the hell!? I see everyone who would need to tell me about senior stuff every day and I still have to check a useless email to know when things are?? My graduating class is really damn small you do not need to mass email us to tell all of us something. Or why don't you use my ACTUAL email that I check all the time?? Oh no can't do that it would be too easy for the rest of us....

2. gesundheit girl?
I mean really!? You made it all the way to senior year and no one ever said this to you?? I know we might not be in the most cultural place but really!? No I'm not going to say bless you because I may be the least religious person in the world... I like gesundheit more because in the states it has almost no religious connection.

3. Good game guys!
Our team has been absolutely amazing they haven't lost a game all year and this last weekend they won the last game and a trophy. Now don't get me wrong I think they did a wonderful job but I am getting really sick of hearing the same "wow you guys are great" to the team members that really suck as people. They did a great job now be done. Not to mention that half the team are some of the worst, most arrogant people to be around.

So today really sucks so far and I'm just sick of school and these stupid rude people....

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Almost to the weekend!

I'm only part of a day away from the weekend! I'm really hoping that this weekend goes well and works out for us all....

Saturday is the chili festival in middleburry and my sisters play in vergennes -_-; I really don't want to miss my sisters play but I do have to figure out rides....

Well I'll probably write more a little later but I have things to do first :p feel free to leave a comment!

The sun! I forgot what it looked like!

The sun is finally back!! I'm so happy that it's nice outside today! I love days like this at walden because I can be outside to enjoy them! Even right now I'm sitting outside on a fallen tree typing this from my phone. I can here the birds starting their summer songs! :D

The weather is awesome and I really think it could only get better if my boyfriend was here. Xp sorry I'll stop being a sappy kitsune now!

Fursuit update:
I am waiting on my taxes to pay for the suit I've been raving about but they might not be here in time... I'm going to try and sell a yarn tail I've been working on that was going to replace my purple one(that needs to be retired). It's a simple white with a black tip and it's pretty floofy :) I'm not sure how much it will cost though... That's what I'll be figuring out this afternoon when I try and finish it.

I have my list of commissions on my DA and FA mostly and I'll be doing my friend stuff while working on some things I want to sell as I'm quite broke. I am working on a tail commission today and doing some homework...

I'll probably do my rant a little later :) stay tuned!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Another Wednesday

This week I've been kind of lonely because my boyfriend has not had the gas money to come see me. I can't really go to him either... I'm also worried that I wont have the money for the suit(see last post for sneak peek).

I was supposed to go live with my boyfriend and our friends but now they are making strange decisions and we can't live with them. We were going to stay until we had the money to get an apartment but now we have to make new plans and is all just confuduling.

But today is another Wednesday... Although I will be hanging with an old friend who is visiting from college! So maybe today wont be just another day :p

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

A sneak peek and Mardi Gras

First the sneak peek:
The fursuit I will most likely be getting later this month ;) that is if our taxes come in soon enough.
If they don't I'll be freaking out and have to find a new way to pay for it... :/ I don't want to lose my chance, I really love this character!

So this last Saturday was mardi gras here in vt so there was a big parade in Burlington! A group of us met up there and had a great time! A lot of them were in suit as well!

Here we have Apo(fox), Gale(saber tooth kitty), Nexus (worn by strobes is a fox/wolf), and Shadau (white tiger) from left to right, just the fursuiters. :) This was a few people that were there for the parade that wanted to take pictures!

Here is a great shot of (left to right) Zanner(lab mix), Gale, Nexus, and Shadau with some other performers that were ecstatic to see them! I think Apo had left by then :P

This is everyone with... a... uh... sports person XP I wish I could say more but I'd have to talk to Gale she's the one who would know! She was so excited :P

This is Nexus and Gale :P nexus is being worn by Strobes who actually is Gale's Fursona XD
this picture is one of my favorites because you can see some of the snowflakes that are on them :P The snowflakes were almost perfect XD

We had to go home earlier then every one else as the roads started to get bad O.o we almost were hit by the car in front of us at one point! The fool slammed on her breaks on a hill in the snow -_-;;;
If you live in a place where it snows often... Learn to drive in the snow!!!! AND if you have a FOUR WHEEL DRIVE CAR USE THE FOUR WHEELS!!! Ugh there are few things more irritating than being stuck behind a car with four wheel drive that's going way too slow because they don't know what they're doing!

Links to the fursuiters FA pages:
Gale (suit owned by Nexus and worn by her):
Nexus (suit owned by her but worn by her boyfriend strobes see next):

Hey please comment if the links don't work or if you want to say something XP thanks for waiting!


I meant to post some stuff over the weekend but I didn't get the chance so expect lots of pictures soon! My teacher had me write part of a paper instead of letting me finish my update xp so really soon!

I've been really stressed lately so please excuse my lateness :p

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Good news fursuit stuff!

I think I might be getting a fursuit from a lovely lady soon! :D

The suit is wonderful! It is a partial with no feet but its still wonderful! I'm really excited and I hope everything works out ok :) she's a kangaroo wolf hybrid and is just the cutest! I'm really looking forward to wearing this suit!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

A day at home

I'm home from school today because I feel awful... I haven't been sleeping right and I've been pretty stressed :/

Anyway today is my day to work on some of my stuff for class. I have to work on a research paper, an analytic paper, and some other small papers. So thats part of my plan today.

I also want to work on some stuff for my art portfolio. I'm going to do some vectoring and maybe some stuff in gimp... If I get the chance I want to finish my art for my friends and get the yarn tails I'm working on done -_-;;

I haven't looked into other fursuit makers much yet but I did look a little and so far there is no way I'll be able to get my suit made in time for the end of school... So I'll be trying to make mavis myself soon. It's going to be hard but I think it will be worth it. :)

I'll be posting more often now and please feel free to comment but please be nice!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013


Today was a regular day and school went fine. I wrote a pretty cool beginning to a poem about a song I was listening to for class. I vented a little about my friend who's no longer a friend and tried not to spend money in Burlington. -_-;

After class I was picked up by my boyfriend and we ran some errands for his mother then hung out at his house. We had a pretty good time but it turns out he sprained a muscle in his eye! I didn't even know that was possible! O_o

Fursuit update:
At one point we were talking about his fursuit and how the makers house was now full of bed bugs and so she is going to send the mostly done suit to us to finish after she makes sure there are no bed bugs... So to make this shorter she will not be able to make my suit now -_-;; I'm sad because I don't have the money to buy from another maker and I wont have my suit before school ends :(

Now I'm going to try really hard to make my own because that's the only way I see this working out how I would like. -_-;;;

I'm just getting lots of empty promises for one reason or another lately... It just sucks...

Monday, February 25, 2013

A long day...

Today didn't go as badly as I thought... which is good! It still wasn't tremendously fun either -_-;

I had a really great class today that really helped me lighten up from this morning! It was a class entirely about cheese! yep Cheese. Ethan even brought in samples for us to try of some of the different kinds of cheese there are.

I'm very tired and I miss my boyfriend a lot... I'm having trouble sleeping without him. I miss being able to roll over and cuddle up to him. I'm being a little sappy here but I can do that sometimes! >_<

Anyway I'll be off to bed soon... I have to at least try and sleep :P but before I go...

Fursuit update:
I have about $100 in my fursuit fund as of today and tomorrow I should be doing my Anthrocon registration :D so I think things will be getting better!

I'm excited to get my fursuit but I'm also worried :/ I'll write more of that later :) well anyway goodnight everyone!
 Feel free to leave a comment!