Friday, January 25, 2013

ugh... some updates and a Rant

hmm... so I did livestream the drawing of ponies and thats up on my livestream here: https://new.livestream.com/accounts/2569255/events/1813850

so you can watch that if you'd like. I also updated some stuff on one of my deviant art accounts here: http://runzi333fur.deviantart.com/

I'll be doing another stream of ponies eventually and maybe a short one of my tail making but I might just do a you tube update


Lets get a little personal here(Rant about friends I will use no names):
explanation:
In other news I've had a pretty rough week. I suppose I'll explain not that most of you care anyway :P
So I got a message from a "friend" that said basically "why are you such a bitch all the time to me do you hate me?!" I was confused so I asked what she meant. she told me to ask anyone everyone thought I was a bitch, so I asked most of the people we are around on a daily basis and all but one said that they thought I was nicer to her than most other people. the one person who agreed with her was one of my closest friends who then went on a facebook message rampage of how I was a terrible person to the point where I had to block her. I told her we were done. I was very upset at first. I was upset because I knew I was nice to this girl even though she was not so nice to others. I was worried that I might be being rude on accident so I asked people and they all said that it was simply stupid and I was almost always nice to her. 
my reaction(the rant):
As I thought about it I realized that my friend was probably mad about some other stupid thing that I did that must have offended her. She seems to think that everything I do is specifically to offend her and I should never hang out or have a relationship with other people. I was only upset for a day and I couldn't figure why... but I understand now. We had many great times but they did not outnumber the bad and I realized that that relationship had gone south and was no longer in a place where I could muster the energy to fix it again. I've been the one to fix it too many times and I just can't do it any more... I feel kind of bad because I feel like I was a pretty good friend up untill the end but I guess I wasn't. She's also the friend I couldn't talk to about relationship stuff.... so I guess we stopped being friends a while ago and I just never noticed.... 

so I had an interesting week dealing with all of this... in a class of 14 -_-;

Also our school protested the "leggings as pants" ban at our school -_-;;;

Fursuit fund:
I have $10 saved for my fursuit... only $240 left to go ;_;

Friday, January 18, 2013

Working away!

I'm working on art and tails! I'm starting the commissions for my friends tonight and new art shpould be up on my art sites by tonight! live streaming if I can! I really need to get some stuff done!

Hope everyone has a good night if I can't post later!

Today is a strange day....


Ok so most days for me are strange but today is a very strange day. I haven't had much sleep because my boyfriend was in an accident and went off the road the other night and I've been worrying about him. he had a bit of a memory problem this morning and now I'm worrying more. I'm sitting in the middleschool typing away while he's working for like three hours...

I'm hopeing to get my fursuit soon but I'm still 250$ away -_-;; I may have already said that :P but its worth saying more than once... I'll be doing more commissions when my tablet stops being dumb X_X

I really can't get motivated today... my art peice I was working on was not saved before my computer updated on its own x_x;; so I really dont want to re-do it :/

I might do an art stream later since my internet at home should be much much better! :D so look forward to that livesreamers!

Long time no see!

So I have been pretty busy but things are slowing down (as much as they do I guess -_-; ) I have some cool news and a rant!

News:
FURSUIT UPDATE:
I have a friend making my suit for a lot less than anyone else :DD because my BF donated his foam and fur from the suit shes making him to me :D so Im doing a raffle soon on FurAffinity to raise my watchers but when I do that I'll post a bit here and give others a way to enter so stay tuned for a chance to win a free tail!

Other News:
I was asked back to work at the teddy bear factory for their valentines day rush (beginning of Feb to valentines day) so I hope I can save money for ac and school trips!

College:
I'm working on going to college in VT but I really feel lost about the whole process 90% of the time :/
looking at:
Champlain 1
ccv then champlain 2
lyndon?
idk these are just a few things I'm thinking about...

Rant of the day(high school drama):
My best friend has become hard to talk to... I love her to death but she really doesn't like my boyfriend... I can't talk to her about him because she gets upset really easily when I talk about any relationship I have other than our friendship. I can't talk to her about the good parts of my relationship because she gets really sad because she has trouble in relationships but I can't talk to her about just the bad parts or she will think I'm in a bad relationship and bother me to leave him... It all just sucks. Rant rant rant high school drama rant.

So thats all for now but things are crazy so I'm sure I'll write more later!