Thursday, October 22, 2015


I'm so tired today. I was up at five to be at work for seven because I was too tired to get ready for work when I got home last night at midnight..... from work. I really like my job but there is a reason I needed to be part time.

now on to class and the first of the student led pieces.... They seem so enthused!

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

OK so I know I just posted ponies but....

I made this to commemorate today and thought I'd share that here!

Happy Back to the Future Day!!

MLP art and my ask blog!

I mentioned it before but now I'm posting about it in particular! I run an ask blog for my two MLP FIM OC ponies.

For those of you who have no idea what any of that means I'll explain.
On tumblr there is a function to ask the blog poster a question, this has many interesting uses but a lot of artists will set up a blog for a character of theirs for users to ask the character questions. A person sends in a question and the artist draws the character answering it. This leads to character growth in ways many artists wouldn't have thought of. My particular ask blog I'm talking about has to do with original characters (OC's) I've created to live in the world created in the show My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic(or one very much like it).

My characers (Doodle wing the Pegasus and Icy lights the Unicorn) are described in the blog itself so I'm just going to post one of the asks I've answered so far and if you like it you can see the rest HERE. (you can read the story chronologically by clicking that in the side menu)

I draw all of the art for this in inkscape. I do use screen caps I take from the show as reference for certain shapes and such as that is my aim, I want my art an characters to look like the show as I like the style. Both characters were created and drawn by me and are owned by me.


I'm so worried about getting accepted or not to my school of choice.... I really should have a back up plan but there isn't another place for me to learn what I want. I don't think there is in my price range definitely but there might not be one at all. I really hope things go well and I'm freaking out over nothing but I really don't know what to do. It would really help if I had less of a problem with depression and anxiety.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Days off!

You really don't know how great days off are until you don't have any for a while! I like my job but this is a little bit too much with school. I'm so glad they like me enough to work with me on hours though!

I like having a little bit of time to decompress but I'll always be a little sad when I don't have time to work on things I really like. I have so many cool projects I want to do and it's tough not having the time for them all. I can't even ask for help because so many of these things are personal and can't really be done by others.

On a side note I'm really happy that my memory seems to be getting better because of school and this new job! I write everything down but I find I need my notes less and less. I hope I can continue to fix my memory issues.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Back to the rant of the day! Professors with unrealistic expectations!

Normally I have no issues with the teaching methods of my teachers, I know how I learn best and that might not always line up with their methods but I still respect how they teach. I'm having a lot of trouble dealing with this one teacher though. She started the class by explaining how she understood that as community college students many of us have a lot going on outside of class and that she would be planning on that. I've deduced that she is either thinking we do very little other than school or doesn't actually care. She has since given us a project to do in groups that we need to meet outside of class, almost no homework on certain days and tons on others, and I've now had to print 11 pages of an internet article I was told to read before class and still print and bring in?

I do not have the time or money to print 11 pages of something just so you are certain I read it and actually took the online test to get to the information. I don't mind talking about my results or proving I took the test but 11 pages of stuff I've already read because you asked me to is expensive and excessive.

I don't like this class and it's because of the teacher. I like 90% of the class if not all of them but this teacher is driving me up a wall. I like her as a person but she gets too stressed out teaching and doesn't accurately understand life outside of her own.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Time management and energy use

Time management was never a thing I was good at. I found out recently that it may have to do with my depression as "losing track of time" or having a "broken internal clock" are symptoms of it. I guess I'm not entirely surprised that it is a depression issue but I hadn't ever thought about it having a cause other than my own absentmindedness. I've always had a terrible sense of the passage of time and how long I've spent doing things. I still have trouble figuring out how long something has been going or how long I've been doing something when I can't watch a clock.

Recently with school and my new job I've had so little time or energy to do things and it's frustrating. I wish I could give more to the projects I'm working on but the hours I have at home to do so are now used to sleep and detox from school and work. I want to draw and work on my own things but I either don't have the hours to devote to it or I don't have the energy to put into it.

I really hope I can switch from full time to part time because I need this to change a bit. I'm spending more time away from my home than I'm spending in it and when I am home it's to sleep, eat, and cram in homework.

I could probably work with this but I'm worried that my grades will suffer as I have less time to put into school with this job being so time absorbing.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Working away!

I've suddenly become so busy! I need to keep up with something so I'm going to try and keep this and other places updated to keep myself sane! I want to write a lot more so that's my plan.

I've started college this year and so far so good! Right now it's just part time at the community college but I hope to be headed to my school of choice next year! I'm much more busy but I think I'll be happier with this school stuff in my resume for jobs I actually want to have.

Speaking of jobs I stopped working at the discount store and print shop and I'm now full time at a hotel as the front desk person! I really like it even though it's tougher than a lot of jobs I've had before. I hope I can do well at this job and I don't overwork myself with it and school. Right now school is what is really important so if it comes to choosing I'll just have to find other work.

I've done so much since I posted here last! I need to talk all about Splatoon, costuming, UTAU stuff, and so much other cool stuff!!