Monday, August 7, 2017

New job and school starts soon!

I got a new job! It's at a bagel place that's also a cafe/ sandwich shop. I really like it so far and it pays nicely which will be nice! I'm excited to work a real job again because for the last few months I've just been cleaning the bank for an hour a day and that doesn't pay my bills.

School starts soon and I'm really looking forward to it! I hated high school a lot (except for Walden) and college has been so much better. I really can't get over the fact I'm going to school for exactly what I want to do in my life and I'll actually be learning from people currently in the industry as well. I think the experience is invaluable and I really can't believe it's actually happening to me.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Another Hatsune Miku WIP!


Yep my Miku Hatsune model got a new face and a few more details yesterday! She's still quite a ways from done but I'm feeling a lot better about things as I go on. I'm not sure how to go about some of the things I want to do but I'm sure over time I'll figure it all out. I'm excited about this so far and I hope I can get her to look how I want her to.

She is being made in Metasaquoia. Please don't repost this or use it without my permission. Thank you.

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Let's talk a bit about relationships and mental health.

This is going to be a post about relationships between myself and my friends and also mental and emotional health so if your here for the other stuff I post feel free to skip this! I will say quickly that knowing and learning about these things is helpful so it might be worth the read for you anyway.

I have these two friends who I love a lot but have been giving me a hard time lately. I've known both of them for a long time and while I'm upset with them I understand them enough to gauge the situation well I think. So they are both in odd places in their lives and increasingly using me as an escape from their issues with little regard to my own plans and life. I have increasingly less time for my personal projects and everyday life chores because these two friends suddenly need me every day for some off thing or another and I only have so much time before I start school full time and have even less time for my own stuff. I will be leaving out names because some of this is very personal. If either of my friends I am talking about read this I want you to know I love you and I'm just writing to clear my head. I will bring up these things to you personally if they become too much for me but for right now I just need this to gauge where we are and where I am.

We'll start with friend "A" who has just recently graduated from her dream art school and doesn't quite know what she wants to do now. She had been in an on and off "not relationship" with a guy she knows from a previous summer job but just recently decided to stop being hung up on him and move on with her own life. This is very good for her and I'm super proud of her for accepting that he was using her and never really wanted a relationship and choosing her own mental and emotional health over his (which she probably couldn't "fix" and would have made her miserable). I am SO proud of her for this and I am happy that she's sending less time with a group of friends who were quite bad for her health and well being in general.

This leads to a different issue though. I love her very much but I am now the person she goes to with everything and while I desperately want to be there to help her I know, after much hardship of my own, just how far I can stretch my mental health before I'm hurting myself. She doesn't know how much time I spend learning things because art come naturally to her. She has a hard time understanding that I just need time alone sometimes recently. She wants companionship more often than I can give it to her. I hope that I do help her when I can though.I have been tough with her on issues I think are harmful to her but I hope in a way that shows her I'm not going to let her hurt herself or lie to herself about things. She's been given a lot in her life so she has trouble figuring out what things she should be fighting for and what things to let go of and move on from. She's gotten much better about things recently and I think she's really starting to understand the "real world" from her college life. She's also been my close friend long enough to understand when I need to go out and get away and when I need a nice day in watching movies most of the time which I really appreciate. The issues I have with her are actually mostly exasperation because she's very skilled in art and has never had to really try her hardest to get what she wants or needs so she doesn't know how to market herself or push for something now that she's in a world of a bit more competition. I want to see her live her dreams but she gets worried when it doesn't come easily.

Now friend "B" is a very different story. She's recently left a long term abusive relationship that left her with much trauma and two wonderful babies under two years old. There is an entire book I could write on what happened but I'm not going to tell a story that isn't mine. I'm going to start with how proud I am of her for leaving someone who she had loved who had turned abusive. This is not an easy task. Abusive relationships seem like something you should just immediately see and get out of but it is almost NEVER that simple. I'm so happy that things in her life seem to be getting much better and even though her family is not the best place for her to be either it's at least a little bit safer physically for her and her kids. She's been through a LOT in her life and I really hope things just keep getting better for her. Her kids are great and healthy, she has a well enough paying job at the moment, and she has a lot of support from friends and family.

I'm going to address issues we have in our friendship and a few issues friend "B" has. "B" has a lot of issues mentally and emotionally from her life, she's gone to get help before and hopes to do so again soon which is phenomenal and I am so proud of her for this too. These issues are being addressed by her which is extremely important and a huge step for her to take in her own well being. That doesn't mean she's instantly cured or that these issues do not effect her relationships with others. This coupled with my own issues leads us to some interesting fights and talks in our relationship. Recently we've had issues because she doesn't understand my time management and she has trouble with putting herself in other peoples shoes. She's had to look out for herself for quite a while now and this seems to have caused her to become more self centered.

Much of our arguments recently stem from a misunderstanding of my time and how it should be used. I don't have a great job right now and I don't work much per week at it. To "B" this means I have a ton of free time not spent doing anything because her very limited free time is spent on more relaxing indulgent ventures than mine. My "free time" isn't actually free time most days. I spend hours of my day working on art and modeling because it's not only what I like to do but also what I plan on doing for a career. I'm happy to be doing it but it's also very important for my life. The issue arises when I don't have time to give to her that she sees as time I'm not using. An example that comes up quite often is babysitting. She'll assume I'm free and ask me to babysit, I'll tell her no I can't because I have stuff to do, She'll then get upset that I have all of this free time (the time I'm using for household chores or portfolio work) and can't help her out and give her some time away from the kids. I don't mind helping her out once in a while or when a sitter cancels on her last minute but I don't have kids and I don't have the mental and emotional strength to watch them a lot. They are adorable and I love them but they are exhausting and I can't do that right now. I just can't do it. "B" uses manipulation tactics to try and get what she wants or needs, I don't think these are conscious decisions most of the time but survival methods she's had to employ or has just grown up with. While I understand why she uses them that doesn't make them healthy or okay to use. She recently got upset with me because I couldn't make time for her last minute to watch her kids. She wanted to go to a party which I can understand because being a single Mom is super hard and you need to take time for yourself. This being said she values my time so little that she just assumed I had nothing going on and could watch the kids on a few hours notice. I told her no and she got upset siting the promise I made to help her. When I continued to tell her I couldn't and that the notice was too short she resorted to trying to make me feel worse about my life and telling me how I was a bad friend for not rescuing her from her abuser. This wasn't only false because I had tried to help her get out of said relationship many times and had spent a lot of time helping her (I was a stirrup for her when she had her first baby) but was meant to make me feel sorry and do what she wants. I can unfortunately recognize this kind of manipulation from past experiences with others.

I love my friend a lot and I want to help her but I am not a therapist or psychiatrist, I just don't know how to help her. I don't know how to explain this stuff to her. She's not a bad person in any way and when you're in trouble she's always there to try and help but what do you do when they do hurtful harmful things without understanding it? How do you explain to a person what they are doing is hurtful when that has always been justified for them? How do you show someone the good things in their life and tell them to get it together?

This was much longer than I thought it was going to be! I just meant to make a quick post but apparently I needed to write it all out to make sense of it. I apologize if it rambles or is difficult to read! Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Okami Amaterasu



I adore this game. Okami is a huge part of my life and I loved every second of playing it for the hours and hours days I have played it. I really wanted to do more fan art partially to expand my audience and mostly because I want to show my love for the wonderful games, shows, and other stuff I enjoy!

I did this piece in Krita with a digital brush that I slightly modified and some airbrushing. The sun and scenery probably took the longest because I draw canine shapes all of the time. I'm pretty proud of this one. It's not perfect and if/ when I do more things like this I think there are a few changes I'd make but overall I'm super happy with it.

New Miku model wip!



I'm working on a Miku 3D model! Surprise! :D It's not going to be perfect by any means because I'm super new to modeling from scratch but I'm excited for it. I think I'm doing alright for a beginner. :) Eventually I hope to have her in MMD but I'm not sure.

I'm making her in metasequoia and I used pictures of  ISAO Miku and the Miku in the "Miku Miku ni shite ageru" video for proportion reference.

I'm really excited to have gotten this far and I hope I can figure out the rest of it before I start school in the fall because I don't think I'll have a ton of time for side projects with five classes. I really hope I can get her to look how I want but as long as she looks like Miku I think I'll be happy.

Monday, June 19, 2017

Fan art and college stuff!

I got my class schedule for the fall! I'm so excited and a bit worried but that's not really new for me, I tend to be a worry-wart. I'm taking some interesting classes for my first semester in this college. I'm probably the most excited about the classes directly related to video game design but that's a given. I'm really impressed that they have a history class for game development. It seems like a given but I just hadn't thought about it until I saw it in the curriculum. I'm not super sure how the other classes will go but I'm really looking forward to my art and game design related classes.

On a more summer related note I'm working on some projects to improve my art! Right now I'm drawing a few fan art type drawings which are fun and I think they'll be well received!

Friday, June 9, 2017

New place to find me!

I'm trying to branch out and get my art in many places! So I set up my Instagram! Check it out!

I hope to get more stuff up and be better at posting since it's what I want to be doing!


I also posted an art piece for #Mermay on deviant art!

I'm trying to find other places to post my art but I'm not sure where else to post so if you have suggestions please let me know!

Friday, April 14, 2017

The worst class yet.

This semester I've come across the worst class I've ever taken. I'm in it because I thought it would be helpful but instead it's just a huge pain and at this point a waste of my time and money.

So the class is a color theory class, it is surprising that it's bad since it could be fantastic and super useful! It started off a little weird since it is online. The professor had us buy a very specific set of paints for the class which is a bit odd for an online course but makes sense in that we all need to be using the same colors. I had no issue with this as I thought that the class would have some painting and color mixing in it. Things started to get really odd about the third week or so when the college professor sent us to a Wikihow page for an assignment. Yes the teacher sent us to a free online tutorial on color mixing a color wheel. The Wikihow wasn't even specific to our paints so it made even less sense. I was not impressed but at the same time I didn't think too much of it at that time.

The next few problems I had were much worse. The professor began giving much more work after the forth or fifth week out of the blue and completely messed up my schedule for her class then posted the next weeks assignments days after posting the current weeks so I ended up doing the wrong assignments for one of the weeks. The other problem with all of this is that almost EVERY assignment was painting. I can't paint and have never used this kind of paint before. Not once. I emailed the professor when I started to be late turning in assignments telling her that I was having trouble with the medium and the time it takes to do the work. Her response to almost every email is that she wants me to work harder and that my time management needs work.

OK This I really have a problem with. When I was in high school I totally had major issues with procrastination and I wont pretend that it's not still a bit of a problem for me but college is different. I have ALMOST NEVER been late with an assignment. I knew I was going to have to work my butt of in college to get great grades because I wanted to transfer and my high school grades are not good. I've worked harder on my grades the last two years than all of my school before this. I AM NO LONGER A SLACKER. I cannot afford to be one anymore. I made Phi Theta Kappa this year as a bit of proof of my intent to get the best grades I can.

I've tried everything with this lady and she just keeps asking for outrageous things. At first I thought it was just me being a bit overwhelmed but I asked my other teachers and my adviser who all said she was asking for a bit much with the time we had for the class.

This class is ridiculous and to top it off I'm not really learning anything about color theory. I'm just so disappointed.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

I made it!

I got into my college!!! I'm so excited! Its not even real to me yet but I did it! I've been trying to get in for then longest time and I really thought I would have to look elsewhere after all of this mess. I'm so glad that I made it in. I think it was much harder than it had to be. This fall I'll be doing what I really want to be doing and I am so looking forward to it!

I've been trying to figure things out on my own but I really want to learn about 3D modeling and art and everything I can from people who really know what they're doing.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Art, commissions, and life!

Wow! Things just will not calm down for me! I've been working away on quite a few things recently!

I've had a bit of a hard time with my art classes because of the teachers but my anthropology class is going okay. I'm frustrated with the classes but I think I'm going to talk about those separately from this post as this is just a quick update!

So things are going well relatively for me but I'm trying to better myself. I'm working on a lot of art and trying to get into my college still.

I recently took on commissions and I've been posting them to Ko-fi and deviant art mostly. I should branch out and try more websites but here is the information for those who read my blog!
If you would like a drawing from me feel free to ask on any site you find me or email me
Runzi333@gmail.com

Saturday, March 4, 2017

A girl in orange and a griffon!

I've done more art! If you have a deviant art and want to see them on there I've added links to them directly in the captions!

The first is a girl in three colors, well mostly! I did this drawing for a class and had a great time with it! The goal was to use the analogous colors and I chose yellow, orange, and a red-orange. I also used a mixture of each at half opacity to get skin tones and other small details. I really loved how she came out but I may update her at some point.
Click Here for the Deviant art page!
The next piece is another sketch for a friend on twitter of his griffon character Chiswick! I really liked how this came out too but I think I'd redo the wings on a second go of it. (Chiswick's twitter is in the description on Deviant art if you want to see more of him!)

Click here for the Deviant art page!
If you would like your own artwork from me I do take commissions and as of this posting they are open! I draw a fair amount of different things and would love to draw for you!
My prices are on weasyl or deviant art!

In odd places.

My friends are all in odd places, whether it is in the physical, mental, or emotional sense. For instance my friends from high school who I still am in contact with tell me about all of the craziness of their lives and while I like being an ear for them to complain to I really wish I could help them more. I'm very broke and that's not a secret nor will I pretend that it's not true. This means I can't help them in any financial situations. In my attempts to make any sort of a living I give a great deal of my time to work, school, and my family with the occasional side art commissions when I think I have time to do them. This means I don't have a lot of time to give them physically and this is compounded by the fact they don't all live in close proximity. Mentally and emotionally I'm not very stable and that means I am only helpful to them in these ways when I'm capable of it and that isn't always.

I try to be a good friend to those who stay with me and be a good girlfriend to Tae. I'm sure my friends would say I'm a good friend and Tae seems to think I'm a good girlfriend but I, myself, struggle with not doing enough for these amazing people in my life. My friends and family are really fantastic, supportive, and loving. I don't know where I would be without them and I hope they know how much I love them.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

What a week!

Things got crazy for a while there! I got the job cleaning but it really isn't enough hours, I'll have to find something else soon. I've been working on classwork mostly and a little bit of 3D modeling when I have time. I've been teaching myself Metasequoia with the help of some youtube videos!

so far I have a face a little farther along than this work in progress:
I'm really liking the progress I'm making even if it's a bit slower than I would like. I really hope I can make something by myself without using other peoples models, I have nothing against doing that it's just not how I want to be doing things forever.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Some other art!

I did this for a friend on twitter! It's part of my sketches I'm doing for commissions!

I also drew my Wyrm from Cruinndrac farms! She needed a bit of a fix and I thought it was funny so she got a doodle!

And also here is a picture of her:

I'm working on a few more sketches for twitter so keep an eye out!


New job? And a college rant!

I had an interview after class yesterday but I'm not sure if the job is going to work... When I was talking to the people over email they wanted me to work certain hours and in another city but instead I'm working much fewer hours and in a different place? I'm not sure if  this will work because it's really not what we talked about and I will probably need real hours.

The college rant! This isn't a really huge rant just a short, not very upset one. I'm in a drawing class currently. It's the second class in the set of drawing classes. This class is important to me and what I want to do with my career. This being said, there is something else wildly different this semester than the previous class I was in. This class has a group of high school students in it. For the most part these kids are fine and don't cause much of a fuss but they are so very obviously high school students. They are too shy to talk during class at times but will idly chat constantly to each other and occasional I have to ignore a conversation or two that even I find childish (this is saying something). I'm not that upset or ranting heavily because they mean well and for the most part they behave. The problem I have is that the teacher of this class seems to be slowing us all down to keep pace with them. I did not pay that much money to be slowed down by high school kids who are there for free. I know that might seem mean and I'm not that much older but this is really important and I really don't want to go back to the high school atmosphere and I can't afford to waste time in this class.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Valentine's Day

I've never felt like Valentine's Day was a super important holiday for me. I like the idea and later in my school life I liked giving small gifts to my friends but that was it for a long time. Even when I started dating I never really loved this particular holiday. I don't hate it but I just don't get excited about it like I do with other holidays. My family is pretty crazy about holidays and we even get stuff for each other for Valentine's Day but we don't get super excited.

A good example of what I mean is with Tae this year. He and I didn't really celebrate it at all past saying Happy Valentine's Day to each other. I'm not concerned, upset, or even remotely bothered that we didn't do gifts or even hang out much because I just don't feel the holiday love for this one. It's a sweet gesture to give gifts and appreciate the love you have from and for friends and family. I like the holiday but it's just not as important to me as other holidays. I feel like I'm repeating myself a lot and I don't mean to but I can't quite come up with the words I need I think. Anyway that's my thoughts on the matter!

Monday, February 13, 2017

Drawing and commissions!

I spent a good portion of the day drawing and practicing art. I also decided to take commissions for a little while to see if people would be interested! So I'll post the examples and prices and stuff here!
So the sketches are like this:

And like this:

The full body sketches like these are 6$ and just a head shot of a character would be 3$! I also draw ponies so sketches of them would be 3$ and vectors if people wanted them would be like 9$.
Example of pony art is:


If people here want to get art from me you can find me on twitter and deviant art in the links to the left or you can message me here or at the actual site I'm using, Ko-fi, by pressing the button at the top right!

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Snowy snowy!

I went to work early today because last night they asked us to start at seven because of the incoming snow storm. We just got let out a couple hours early because it's starting to come down hard.  I think we're supposed to get 18 inches or something which would be the most we've gotten this season I believe.

I'm really glad Tae is picking me up! I haven't seen him in almost a week which is not too bad but I usually spend a good chunk of the week with him so it's been weird. I just miss him a lot and maybe we're still in the honeymoon phase but I'm okay with that.

I'm also wondering if I'll be able to get to class or my interviews tomorrow since it's supposed to keep showing through tomorrow morning. We'll just have to see in the morning I guess!

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Still no solid answers?

Yesterday I felt more confused and frustrated after the meeting with the admissions person than before. I was hoping she could explain better what she meant by missed requirements but it really seemed like she had no idea what was needed just that I didn't meet it. After a few minutes of trying to figure out what I needed to change and getting almost nowhere, she told me I could email the person in charge of the major I wanted to get into and see if they could give me a better idea of what I needed and missed. So on the ride home that is exactly what I did!

I just got a response back today and they want to see one more piece of art from me and that will help them figure out exactly where we stand. So I'll be working on that soon and I think it will really help! So keep your fingers crossed for me!

Friday, February 10, 2017

Mildly annoyed and kind of stressed out.

I just got out of my drawing class and now I'm waiting for a meeting with the other college admissions person. Class was fun and I think I got a fair amount done despite the high school group being extra rambunctious. I think they are sweet and mostly mean well but I really don't enjoy some of the dumb things they say or the extra quiet times when they have no courage to speak.  I was there once in my life so I won't give them too much of a hard time but they need to understand that this is not highschool and while they get the class for free I most certainly do not.

I'm worried about this meeting but I think it will go well. Worst comes to worse I have to find a new college and there are plenty that will be more than happy to take an honor student. I'm so proud that I actually made phi theta kappa! I've never done so well in school and I'm working my hardest so it's nice to get a little recognition of that!

Could have been worse!

I didn't have a "good time" at the dentist but it wasn't as awful as I thought. I'm surprised that I didn't have worse teeth but I'm glad it's not too bad so far. They think I have a few cavities but they also think they can fix it so I'm not so freaked out. It had been way too long since I had gone for anything at a dentists' office and it was long overdue. I go back for another cleaning soon which will be nice.

Today was crazy the weather was awful and I just didn't have the nerve to be on the road after the dentist and the accident last Friday so I had to call out of work which really sucks. I hardly ever call out of work because I really hate it and it's not a good thing to have to do. I also apparently needed a day because I was so tired that I took a nap that ended up much longer than I wanted!

Tomorrow is my drawing class and then an interview with a college. I'm excited but also a bit mad so I'll see how things go and give you all a report after!

Thursday, February 9, 2017

At the dentist.

I'm terrified. I hate going to the dentist. I know I don't take care of my teeth well enough and when I was younger I was at the dentist a lot. It's been years since I was here and I know my teeth are in bad shape. I am really freaked out. I know one of them is broken too and I don't know what they're going to do with that. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Milo Yiannopoulos. ABSOULUTLY NOT!

So for those of you still on the fence about milo how about just a couple of articles?

https://www.bloomberg.com/features/2016-america-divided/milo-yiannopoulos/

http://www.tabletmag.com/jewish-news-and-politics/203888/donald-trumps-little-boy

http://www.out.com/out-exclusives/2016/9/21/send-clown-internet-supervillain-milo-doesnt-care-you-hate-him

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2016/05/05/meet-milo-yiannopoulos-the-appealing-young-face-of-the-racist-alt-right.html

He outed a trans student at their school and quite literally caused them harm, not to mention they couldn't go back to class for a while. He's a monster and he's not getting a pass just because he's gay or Jewish. That's no excuse for the bigotry he shows. I'll probably post something more detailed soon but I really get irritated with people giving him excuses for his terrible behavior.

I'm sorry if you think this is ff topic for this blog but it's really not. I'm very outspoken on these topics and others similar. I'll try not to overwhelm this space with that but if you just want art follow my twitter or deviant art.

New stuff!

I added a bunch of new stuff to the blog and one of the things itself is really new and fun!

So I added new links to the links section on the left! I had a few other places I wanted to show you and have connected to this site!

One of the links is a brand new page! I made a twitter that is just for art and 3D models/MMD/PMD/UTAU stuff! I'll be posting there more regularly too! There are a bunch of other links that were on a different page but I consolidated it a bit!

If you have some time to check them out I would appreciate it! I'm also still offering small sketches for those who buy me a coffee with the button on the top right of the page!

Monday, February 6, 2017

New art! Work in grey scale!

I did another project for color theory and wanted to share it!


It's inspired by Matthew Ellero who you should really check out! See his stuff here!

I really loved the cut out artwork he does so I wanted to see if I could do this digitally! I like it but I think I'll be doing it again at some point with some changes.

Taxes and anthropology part 2!

I'm now out of class and with Tae while I wait for him to get his taxes done. My parents taxes get very confusing and sometimes it's better for them to claim me since I'm in school so I just give them what they need for the nice lady who does their taxes.

Class was cool. He's mostly a lecturer which doesn't actually bother me but he says he's getting the basics covered for us to have a better conversation in the future which will be nice. Conversational classes are some of my favorite because I just really do well in that setting. I really hope I can knock these classes out of the park this semester.

Anthropology class!

Anthropology is a class that I actually find very interesting. The professor for it reminds me a bit of Tony Stark from the Iron Man movies! I like it but I'm not sure how to observe a group of people like he wants us to do. I can't use other classes or my family but I don't do anything else regularly. I was going to do Walden but now I'm not sure I can because I don't have a car! This past year and this one so far have been obscenely stressful. I feel bad for Tae too because he's been so helpful and I can't help him out. I'm not sure what to do right now.

Sunday, February 5, 2017

Lady Gaga and some art wips!

I love Lady Gaga! I was so happy to watch her perform! I'm also glad she didn't lip-sync because while there is a time and place for that the superbowl was not it. I think she rocked it and I'm glad I watched.

I'm sad the patriots are catching up a bit but I hope the falcons win!

Also I was working on a picture so I decided to post a work in progress piece! Just a cute fox!
Sorry If you don't like the watermark I'm always worried about art theft. :/

Watching the superbowl.

I've never watched sports really. I watch the Olympics sometimes or if someone else is watching then I won't really interrupt them. So this is interesting. Tae wanted to watch the superbowl today, He doesn't watch very often but I understand he wants to watch this so I said sure!

So far it's been interesting. I'm not a big fan of the patriots because of how they run the team and how they treat others so I'm glad that right now the falcons are kicking their butt! I've never really understood the game itself but I can understand the kind of intense physical strength these guys have and the dedication they have to the game.

I was sad but not surprised to here that Tom Brady is a trump supporter. I mean he's a rich white male, it's probably in his best interest to do so but that doesn't make it okay or in the best interest of America. Supporting someone like trump ultimately means you do not support rape victims, women, black people, Muslims, Mexican people, Jewish people, or many others.

So even in sports that I hardly watch I'm still stuck thinking about the cheeto in chief who is, not so slowly, destroying America. Give us your poor and hungry right?

Another day another homework assignment!

I'm working away today on homework for this week! I had tried to do it earlier and I got a fair amount done but not all of it. Then I got behind a bit with the last stuff because of the accident and getting my car back yesterday. I'm glad my teachers are really great this semester and totally understand. 

Yesterday I was whisked away for a nice date with Tae after I spent most of the day getting my car. There was a company holiday party for the solar company he works for which he took me to and we had a great time talking to everyone and trying out the wine they made there. He liked the beer better since the white wine I tried was very sweet. I love sweet wine so I had that!

I'm sad about my car still but what happened, happened and I have to accept that and move forward. I get very sentimental about things and have a hard time letting go a lot. I'm so sad I can't really thank my car for saving me and I can't fix it. 
So here's to you PT I really loved you and I appreciate everything you did for me. You got me everywhere I needed to go and you saved my life when the road got tough. I loved you and we had a great time, Thank you.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

I rolled my car.

I rolled my car yesterday. I'm alright. I was a little shaken up and I'm sore but about this time yesterday I was crawling out of the passengers side front door of my upside down car. I've never been in an "accident" before. I've gone into the ditch or gotten stuck but nothing worse than a dent or two and a bruised pride. This was not really a small accident but it could have been a lot worse. My car is not in good shape but I'm so thankful I came out okay. It was really crazy to be upside-down in a car, the actual idea of it is scary but when it's happening it's just really odd. One minute I'm sliding a bit in the slush and then I'm upside-down in the ditch. I'm really thankful that I'm okay though.

I'm really upset that my car got crunched... I just got it on the road and it was MY car. I've never had a car before so it really sucks that I'm going to have to borrow one. I'm grateful it won't be too much of a problem to do that because it could have been really bad if I had no ride at all. I know this is a bit of a first world problem but I was so excited to have my own car for the first time and not have to ask my parents to use theirs. There are worse things that could have happened definitely, and I'm really super lucky that I have back up, but I'm still kind of sad.

To recap, I got into an accident but I'm okay, I'm back home safe and sound. I'm sad about my car and it's certainly not great for me to not have it but I'll be fine. I'm so grateful I'm safe but I'm sad it happened.

I took some pictures of the car when we went to go get it today. The red stuff on the grill and coming out from under the hood is transmission fluid. Also that's my mom in the second and third picture.









Friday, February 3, 2017

Ko-fi! What is it and why use it?

I recently came across this website called Ko-fi that some of the people I follow on twitter use. I was curious when my twitter feed said something like "someone just bought @artistnamehere a coffee!".

What is Ko-fi?
Well Ko-fi is a website that uses pay pal to allow people to send money/tips/etc. to artists, usually a small amount like that of a cup of coffee. If you have goals you want to reach, the site is also set up for that! The button in the upper right corner of this page is how you get to my Ko-fi page. The button is very interesting and Ko-fi allows for many different coding types to make sure your button can be seen on most sites!

Why use it?
Well it's free, really friendly and professional looking, and it's a nice way to show support to other creators.
Who wouldn't like a free cup of coffee or other such drink?
I think that this is a really interesting way to do something nice for others and to support artists and other creators. Many of the people I see on this site are very similar to my own situation where they would like to make a living on their art but don't really know where to start. There are also seasoned artists on there that view this site as an alternative to patreon or any other such monthly system!

Why do I have one?
I decided this was a good step towards taking commissions for my art. I'm not super comfortable with my art so I've not been comfortable with taking commissions on it. I also work in a lot of places so it's nice that I can put the button almost anywhere! I also really love the thought of a small act of kindness such as buying someone a coffee, I really think it's nice and now with thew power of the internet you don't need to be at the same coffee shop!
If you want to buy me a coffee I would really appreciate it but don't feel like you have to! I may sometimes put up rewards for buying me a coffee, like for right now you can get a sketch of something you'd like from me in return! I'll try to always post that here so those of you who read this know what I'm offering at any given time.

So if you feel like checking it out definitely do! The link to my page is the button on the top right or if you want the homepage click here!

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

My art and my classes for it!

I've always drawn and I've come a long way but I definitely want to become a better artist. I'm currently taking art classes to improve my skill. Last semester I took a drawing class and a graphic design class. This semester I'm continuing that with drawing 2 and color theory.

So these were done for my drawing class last semester:


Then I also uploaded the first week of color theory's project:


I like these pieces and you can find them all here: http://runzi333.deviantart.com/gallery/
In case they decide not to load anymore!

If you would like to support me and what I do I added a nice little button at the top right of my blog that allows people to buy me a coffee! I thought it was cute and I'll write up a real post about it soon!

New year, New everything!

Wow I haven't posted here in a long time. My life got crazy, out of control, and miserable for a little while.

I'm happy to report that it did get better! My father was right, as he usually is in these such matters, in his usual saying of "This too shall pass". I'm now in a very happy and very healthy relationship with a wonderful man named Tae and I'm having a lot of luck in my school work! The only thing I don't have going for me (knock on wood!) right now is my job. I'm working a seasonal job that took a long break and isn't going to be going on much longer. I really need to find something more solid soon!

As for this website I'm not sure what  should do with it. I want to keep updating it and I think I'll keep using it as a blog but I wish I had something professional to show for what I've done too. I think I'll have to look into a website for myself that works like a portfolio and I thought about doing that here but I think this particular blog might work better as it is for me.

I'm working on so many things right now! I just started to very heavily work on making my own 3D models from scratch and I'm also learning to play the mandolin, Tae knows a great many musical things! I'm drawing a lot more and I'm taking classes that actually really help me in that direction instead of the "needed to graduate" type of courses. This semester it's a Drawing 2 class and color theory, I'm also taking an intro to anthropology class which will help me in character design I think.

I'm going to try and post some artwork I've done for class and other work I've been up to. I feel like I never finish anything but that's not true and I think posting all of it will help me see the work I've done differently.

So I hope you stick around to see what I'm capable of and the crazy ideas I have in store!