Saturday, December 6, 2014

Just having a bad day

Today was day one of my working weekend (my schedule is usually a weekend on a weekend off) and it was much worse than usual.
It started off alright with our usual skeleton crew but my coworkers and I noticed it was going by really slowly. Even slow days are ok for me as long as I'm not a cashier for any part of the day. Yeah I wasn't supposed to be on register at all today but a coworker we have been having... *ahem* problems with call out sick for the last time. Our boss had to let them go and did so when they called. This in and of itself is fine but that leaves our meager staff out a person for the day as it is near impossible to call someone in on a Saturday and leaves our boss in a very irritable mood.
So after all of the fuss I end up on register for the afternoon. Yep the one job there I really hate is the one I was pushed into. I guess I could have said no I'd rather something else but I don't like to do that at work. I want to seem reliable even in things I don't particularly love to do. This fun news was sprung on me in the middle of my shift. This meant I had to text my bf that my lunch had been moved a half hour earlier and I almost didn't get to see him. This is also a small thing most of the time but for me it was one MORE thing to add to an already stressful day. I ended up closing the deli like I was originally supposed to do so it got a little bit better.
I think it would have been fine after that but my dad got in this really weird grumpy mood and yelled at my sis and me for not stopping what we were doing immediately to help clean. Once again not a big deal but I don't like being told off for not asking how high when someone says jump. This incident led to my bf taking my dad's side before listening to the whole story and causing another stupid fight that was easily avoidable.

So sorry readers! This is a life/vent post and I won't lie and says it's the last but I have less ways of venting than I used to so this was important.
Communication is very important and today it broke Doan everywhere I went and I'm not really sure it had much to do with me. So make sure your always clear and concise or fighting will ensue.

Also I hope to be posting a ton more now that I haggle switched phones!

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Room makeover and VT furs.

Zaky decided to give the room a good cleaning and rearrange it while I was at work a week or two ago and it looks great! I really love the layout and everything just fits a lot better. I'm going to make sure I have some sort of set up that makes me keep it clean though because I end up being messy because I'm always rushing to do stuff or really tired.

So in other news the VT Furs have gotten good news! We can suit on church street again! We ended up getting a permit! This means we are an official group with a roster and everything, so that's cool and not so cool. It's cool because now if there is a problem with someone who calls themselves part of VT furs and actually isn't, the police and town know it wasn't us, it's not so cool because we don't know a lot about where we can and can't go yet and if someone wants to visit we aren't sure how to go about adding them or if we would need to for a one day thing. So there are bugs to work out but I'm excited.

Friday, October 24, 2014


So  recently got invited to try out Ello.
Ello is a social networking site that focuses on privacy. I really love the approach and they are based in my state! I find it quite interesting and I'll probably write about it here but for now I think I'll just leave a link for those of you who would like to see my page.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014


I thought a post about meditation was due about now. I'm going to make a long post about stress relief when I have the time and computer to find all of the links I want but for now I'll post this little bit on my meditation.

I'm calling it my meditation because I'm not sure what other people's way of meditating is or how it differs from what I do.

So what is meditation? Meditation means lots of things for a lot of people, for me it's my way of calming myself and getting in touch with myself again. I usually meditate when I'm feeling lost or need to de-stress. Meditation for me is usually one of two things, it can find insights I might have overlooked in my first pass at them or it is a good exercise for healthy brain habits by focusing on keeping your mind blank.

How do I meditate? Well I'm sure other people have lots of other (probably much better) ways to do it but I personally find a quite, comfortable place where I can sit and feel safe and then I go through my steps.
  1. Close my eyes
  2. Picture my body becoming a tree, my backbone being a strong trunk and my tailbone is where my roots start where my face is the fresh green leaves
  3. Root myself. I feel my backbone growing down into the earth and connecting with it.
  4. For my safety I put up my shield. By this I mean I picture a impenetrable fource or wall that not only blocks things from harming me but also blocks things out and helps me stay focused. (People picture themselves in a very thorny rosebush or many other things but I personally like to imagine myself in a circle of giant crystals or ice shards)
  5. Here is where you will think about things you want insight on or decide to use your time to "reset" your mind and work on mental exercises. I like to picture a blank piece of paper or a white wall to start and move on to visualize other things.

Yep that's about it. I have been looking into trance stuff which is really cool but I don't know very much about it so I'm not going to try and go into that here. As I said I will be writing up a long post about stress fighting stuff I love to use and I hope I can do so soon but my life is kind of crazy right now and its a little hard for me to do anything online. X.x well I hope this helped someone somewhere! I certainly like writing about this kind of stuff. Thanks for reading everyone! :3

Hmm what to do next?

In my last post I was bummed out a lot and I think it's unhealthy for me to rant like that without making some effort to change that. Now the question becomes what do I do to change it?

I'm not sure what to do yet and I feel like I need to put some thought into it... I think to start I need to have a sit down with my bf and tell him what I have going on in my head a bit better, he knows mist of it but I want to be a little more clear. After that I'm going to make a list and possibly meditate on what else I might be upset over... 

I'm not sure what else to do yet but I figured it would be helpful to someone out there to know I feel the same way they do, behind and out of luck. It's also helpful to see what I do to try and fix it. At least I hope I can help someone. X.x

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

So much loss and a lot of depression.

My last post was about robin Williams... We also lost another amazing comic... yep I'm talking about Joan Rivers... I will miss them both.

My little dog Poco was hit a few weeks ago as well... I don't like talking abou sad stuff like this though.

I can't go fursuiting either. There is apparently a mask ordinance on church street that they haven't cared about since the sixties. A new suiter was stopped by a cop and now we have to figure out permits and thank dog the city likes us and is helping us as much as they can. I really appreciate that they understand why we do it and want to help, that's just really cool of them.

Things have just not been going my way... my bf and I have spent almost all of our savings on the car all of a sudden and now we need new phones and to pay rent and everything and I just feel like I can't keep up and I'll never get to save up for the things I want. Like a friend of mine is going to make me fursuit feet and I even sent her the money but I can't get to the post office and send her the stuff for trade and the shoes to build them on. I'm so close but I can't seem to make it through the final stretch. It's not a huge deal compared to many things but it's so close and I CAN NOT seem to get it and that is incredibly frustrating. I don't have the best job and I don't mind saving up but it makes me feel worse about my life that I can't seem to get anything to work.

My computer has also bitten the dust so I can't work on anything which adds to my frustration and stress levels. I feel like shit, look like shit, and can't do shit and it's terrible. Right now I don't want much past being able to save what little money I get and spend some of it on some shit for me. I feel like I'm giving everything away right now and it just sucks.

Bleh end rant for now, sorry for the negativity but I've lost a lot personally lately and I'm feeling so down.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Goodbye Robin Williams. I will miss you so much.

So first and foremost, I would like to thank Robin Williams for all of the things he has added to my life. He was a very big part of my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm going to post some of my favorite things he was in here before I post something happy to level out the massive sadness.

Baron Munchausen

I'm sure I'm missing quite a few... I may add them as I find them.

I will miss you always... Thank you for everything.

Friday, August 8, 2014

Let's talk about Kika!

Hi everyone! I wanted to plug my other blog for a minute! For many of you this won't make a lot of sense as you may be unfamiliar with the programs and such but the end result is something anyone who likes japanese music and/or animation(ish) stuff would enjoy!

I have an UTAUloid named K-03 Kika! She's my little singing android! UTAU is a program that synthesizes singing by using voice samples and an UTAUloid is the character people create to represent their voice when put through the program! Yep a make your own japanese idol program! ;P (this is a very very short description! If you wish to know more you can ask me or google UTAU)

Now my Kika is very important to me and I have quite a few internet things dedicated to her! I have her blog find it here! She also has her own Google+ page and Youtube account where I keep all of her stuff (for those who want to subscribe for her stuff and not my other silly Runzi stuff)!

I think I've mentioned before but I also have a soundcloud account here where I repost dumb silly things and other UTAU users amazing stuff as well as sneak peeks at Kika projects I am working on! (also I'm on twitter for those of you who are there and ever want to chat!)

Kika is japanese for mechanical because she is a robot of sorts!(Actually the name is a coincidence, I thought it sounded nice Xp ) Her model number is K-03 which is show like a tattoo on her upper right arm and she is loosely based on an old design I made in middle school and the vocaloid who got me into this whole mess in the first place Hatsune Miku (look her up she is a huge part of my life!). If you go to her blog you will see the two models I have edited to make her and the few videos I have up of her singing and dancing away! She has a backstory that leads into a comic/manga/idk?? I'm planning on doing in the FAR future! XD

So if you have any questions feel free to ask! (if you want to ask anonymously you can do so on my tumblr if you can get past the ugly theme I have right now x3 )

Have all the links! xp

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Lot of stuff has happened!

I have had a ton of stuff happen in my personal life and I'm not going to write about it all right now as I would write forever.

I have a ton of pictures posted of my Runzi head (with temporary hand paws and tail) out and about on church street!

(from left to right) Runzi, Apo and Rally!

The three of us again! now with more hooman!

Runzi answers what does the fox say for the millionth time!

Church street! Wonder why it's called that!? ;p

(From left to right) Rally, me(Runzi), Apo, and JT!

Runzi barks at a thing while rally notices the camera guy.

Walking to the park.

"Dogs must be leashed" that means you guys!
All of these pictures were taken by Doniago on FA
My FA(Runzi333): Here!
Rally's FA: Here!
Apo's FA: Here!
and JT's FA: Here!

I really love fursuiting on church street! It's nice to walk around and be silly with my friends but it's pretty great that I get to do that and make people smile! I wish we had some more pictures of the people we had ask for pictures because they were really fun! On this trip in particular Apo was abducted by interpretive dancers and Rally and I had to go save him. x3 We had two people scream at us, one was an excited little girl and the other was an odd teen across the park from us. We also had a lot of fun just running around and dancing and goofing around with the street performers!
also sidenote no one thinks you're funny or original when you ask what does the fox say. -_-; I have heard it more times than I care to count.

Monday, May 5, 2014

A long dumb personal post

I found myself in an odd situation today. Lots of things happen when you grow up, friends grow up and stop liking the same things they used to and so do you. That's not new to anyone but I guess I wasn't expecting them to change they way they did... I'm a little bit sad today, as I get sometimes when I think about what my friends are doing while I bumble through my own life. Most of my friends have gone off to college and I'm just now looking into going. They all seem "ahead" of me in life, even those who took some time off school as I did seem this way sometimes. I really shouldn't worry about it because I'm starting to really plan things out for myself anyway but it gets to me sometimes. 

I wish that I had been a better friend sometimes when I hear about things that they've gone through that have hurt them or in some other way changed them. Many of my friends smoke cigarettes and more still smoke marijuana... I don't smoke and am fairly adamant about being around that kind of stuff. I don't care so much that they do it as long as it's not around me and they can at least pretend to be sober around me. I guess I'm really upset that they turned to this. I had to learn other ways of dealing with stress and depression and I feel cheapened by the fact people can just use this as an excuse to not be themselves. It's hard to be yourself in todays world and I completely understand that. I just wish people didn't feel that they needed to mess with chemicals in their brains with outside substances that could hurt them to feel "normal". I feel upset that I have very few friends that don't smoke and fewer still that never have. 
Has the world gotten so bad that they are afraid to be in it all the way? Have I not shown them it's ok to be them or has someone else shown them it's not? 
I already feel very alone and this just pushes my friends farther away from me. I'm so tired of seeing people I love so much getting high to be happy. I wish I could have my old friends back but it's too late now. It used to be "normal" to not smoke often but now it feels like my family and I are the only ones left. I'm so tired of being alone and it pushes a wedge between us when they can't talk to me because they know I'm not happy. 

I'm so tired of losing my friends to a plant because it's the only thing that makes them happy or lets them have a good time anymore. 

Monday, April 14, 2014

New video!

Yep just uploaded a quick one from today! Just a little update!

I have to put it in a link because blogger has the stupidest youtube search in the entire world.
Click here for the video!

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Yay I have a day off!

Yep I have tomorrow off! I should have checked my phone earlier but I think I'm still doing ok.
I think I'll shoot a couple videos tomorrow while my boyfriend is at work...

I really hope I can get a couple done and have them set up to be uploaded later this week too! I think it wouldn't be great to upload them all at once. xp

I should maybe do that on this blog too oops! XD

Hmm what to do?

So I think I may shoot a quick video tonight just letting everyone know what my channel is about and who I am! I'm not quite sure what to say just yet but I will say something! XD

I hope I'm at least entertaining to my friends if nothing else! I'll probably post that video up here if I get to it but I'm not sure yet. It might just be a quick "this is my channel" type of video so who knows!

I'm worried about getting enough sleep tonight... I've been having trouble sleeping lately and I don't want to show up to work useless. Maybe I'll just try and go to sleep earlier... but I don't like to do that if I'm not tired enough because then I just waste time laying in bed when I could be doing something more productive. BLEH! I suppose I'll just figure it out later x.x
I wish we had zzzquil. It's like nyquil but not a cold medicine. hmm...

Saturday, April 12, 2014


So if I don't post as often it's because I'm working a lot and I forget to post things when I'm tired. OOPS!

I found an embroidery shop nearby that does signs and screen printing as well as embroider stuff and I'm super excited to work again! I wish I could sleep less and still not feel gross though. I usually need a ton of sleep to feel good and working 9am to 5pm all week is quite tiring for me(I have depression so I'm usually tired anyway). I do have weekends off though, which is really cool! So hopefully I'll be able to do videos and other stuff still!

I think I'm going to do my "youtube comments" video first because it's been on hold till I got my Runzi head... but now that I have her I really should just do it! Roko already posted her's so I'm behind!

Runzi has arrived!

Yep last Wednesday my wonderful Runzi head arrived from OMGPineapples!
I haven't had much time to post about her as I started a new job the same day. x.x

Here is her unboxing video!

I hope you guys liked it!

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

So Free Cone Day was cool!

We ended up not suiting because my friends couldn't make it, which was ok. I had fun anyway and it probably would have been better had my boyfriend and I known it was going to get cold. We ended up leaving a while after my parents came to get my sister and went with them to Denny's for supper. This was all after my cousin disappeared and we went looking for him for like an hour. So things could have been a lot better but they weren't all bad. :) Ate a LOT of ice cream and had a good time other than the couple hiccups. I do wish we had gone to tea but Kibby had to be home to get up early tomorrow morning. x.x

I really hope my suit is here tomorrow... I'm not going to be happy if it's late and it has not moved (as far as tracking it goes) since this morning before we got up. I'm a state over it should at least be IN my state by now! -__-; COME ON USPS!!!

Still in NH and free cone day!

So Runzi is still being shipped from New Hampshire and will probably get here tomorrow like we thought. :)
I'm really glad gel put insurance on it because I didn't remember to ask! Oops!

In other news IT'S FREE CONE DAY!!! I hope you all can get to a Ben and Jerry's near you before 8pm! I will be going up and hanging with some of our friends on church street and fursuiting for a bit after we get our ice cream! :D

It may be that last time you see Empi for a bit as I will be super excited with Runzi at first and will probably wear only her for a little while! XD Empi isn't going anywhere but she does get a bit of a break! Expect pictures! :D

My refresh button is going to hate me! (and reminder of free cone day!)

I just keep checking to see if my suit has gone anywhere even though it has probably stopped moving around until tomorrow. It has made it to a sorting station though so that's good! Usually things go pretty fast from there out! It says thursday online but both Gel and I think she'll be here wednesday.

I'm really glad she'll be here then instead of tomorrow actually! If it comes wednesday then I will be home to get the box straight from the delivery guy!

But tomorrow (today now?) is Free Cone Day at Ben and Jerry's! I'm really looking forward to going to it! I hope I can wear Empire for a bit but I'm still not sure when we will be up in burlington.
If there is a Ben and Jerry's near you then you Need to go to free cone day!

Monday, April 7, 2014


That's right My first fursona fursuit head and first commission of any kind shipped earlier today! I'm just doing my daily stuff and refreshing the page a ton right now. XD

I'm going to probably cry and be a huge sap when my box gets here! Expect that or over the top excitement!  Maybe both. I will probably put her on in the unboxing video and then maybe shoot a few other videos if I have time! I'm planning so many things and she's barely left my makers home! XD

I'll be doing an unboxing video and I'll be posting that here when it's up but if you want to see my other videos or subscribe for an actual notification Click here! I also have my current fursuit account here! (Yep Empi is my fragile sweetheart xp and silly husky kangaroo)

If you want to commission my maker I will say that she has been wonderful the entire time I worked with her! I've seen three or four of her suits up close and worn my friends a couple of times and I'm very happy with my choice so far! Check out her stuff on her website: She is opening for new commisions soon so send in your quote now!

Here is a review of my friends suit Gale (the one I tried on and love to pieces) on Fursuit Critique's of FA!

How to act at a furmeet/costume meet!

OK so here's my shtick:
There was an issue(or more than one) with a member the local fur group I'm friends with. He ended up "leaving the fandom" and trying to say it was all the VT furs fault. No do NOT try and blame Rally and Ahzlon for your own misbehavior at the meets. Do not try and throw a pity party for yourself because someone had an issue with your actions.

Take responsibility and own up to the problems people are bringing up to you. It may be hard to deal with but no one wanted you to leave, they just wanted you to change the actions that made everyone uncomfortable and in some cases possibly unsafe.

Reread the rules of coming to the meets and respect other people or don't come.

It's not ok to make others uncomfortable or irritated while they are supposed to be having fun just for you to enjoy things more. I do not appreciate how you tried to tell your friends that we hate you and are mean to you (literally half of what really happened and half plain bologna) when we tried to be as nice as possible without letting you do whatever you want. You simply can't do some of the things you did and were planning to do. Not around us and not where we were going.

From here on is important bulleted lists on furmeets or 
any other costume meet up
(warning a bit of a rant at times)

  • Don't have impolite conversations out in public. No talking about bedroom stuff around strangers. (not even just a fur meet rule just general don't be rude kind of stuff) this makes the group as a whole look like something they are not (don't drag others into your dirty laundry)
  • Don't take pictures of people who don't want their picture taken (also common sense but applies to all costume type scenarios)
  • Don't bother other people who are at the venue of the meet who are not at the meet in particular. (It is not a convention not everyone is a furry/anime fan don't act like you can get away with bumping into people or in general bothering them!)
  • DO NOT TOUCH SOMEONE OR THEIR STUFF IF THEY DON'T GIVE YOU PERMISSION. Big issue. No you cannot just grab someones tail or hanging costume accessories just as you cannot just grab someones shirt or pants. There is such a thing as personal space even for people in costume (imagine that!) and you need to respect that.
  • Do not make the group look like something we are not. YOU might like something but you don't have the authority to represent all of us. ( I DO NOT LIKE TO BE SHOWN AS SOMETHING I'M NOT. I think a lot of people will agree that it is not ok when a member of something you're attending does something dumb and everyone catches the blame. DON'T BE THAT GUY/GAL!)
  • When someone tells you to stop doing whatever it is you are doing respect that. (When the people running the meet tell you to politely stop you need to stop right away. They are trying to keep everyone happy and safe not just raining on your parade. )
  • If the people running an event ask you to leave respect it. They may ask you back at a later time if you don't push your limits.
  • RESPECT THE VENUES RULES! If the place in which the meet is being held doesn't allow something you want to do, don't go or don't do it it's that simple. No costumes means no costumes whether you like it or not. also don't bring drinks or loud music or whatever the rule is because they are there to protect and keep happy the other people who go there! (99% of the time the group also has no control over this so don't whine at them.
  • Also respect that people not in the group will generally be there! Don't try and recruit them or get in their way, they are not there to deal with you.
  • You are not the center of attention. No one HAS to do anything for you and you need to remember that.
  • DO NOT blame the group for telling you of any of these or asking you to leave. (YOU did that not them.)
  • DO NOT try and throw a pity party to your friends about how mean the group is. (If I ran the group this would win you a nice ban but I'm not as nice as the admins of VT furs)
  • DO NOT try and blame them for any other trouble you have or any action you take thereafter.
    (For our group in particular: WE did not tell you you could not be in the fandom or that we would even do anything if you stayed. NO ONE told you to "burn your costume" or anything of the like. Don't try and blame anyone for that but yourself.)
  • Do NOT try and whine at the group admins to get your way. (Unless you are one of their small children this should be common sense.)
  • Do NOT try and show up to a venue in an outfit that would be against their dress code. For instance, wearing a costume that is very revealing to a place with a lot of children. If you have already been told not to do this and try to anyway you shouldn't be going to meet ups you are not mature enough. (It really is that simple.)
  • Do not try and make things harder on those running things (they work hard so you can have fun)
I'm not saying these things to be mean or spiteful. These rules are in place for a reason and if you don't understand them you need to ask or just go with it. 
Most of these rules allow meet ups to keep happening and keep being safe and fun for all involved. I really mean that last one, IF YOU DON'T LIKE HOW SOMETHING IS DONE DON'T COME you'll just make those who do like it angry and upset with you.

End rant/ info dump! xp

I really like going to local fur meets and people like this put those meets in danger of not continuing! That puts everyone on edge and makes people who like to go uneasy and unhappy. If you are the person who ends up causing trouble then just apologize or have fun elsewhere. You make me mad when you act childish and throw tantrums.

Wow what a huge amount of text! Sorry everyone! Hope this can help some people.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

The wait kills sometimes!

I am so impatient! I really want my suit and it's only a few days away! It is supposed to arrive on free cone day though O.o so I might not get it until we get home from church street. I kind of hope it will be earlier or a day later just so I can wait for it and get it from the delivery guy myself! Although I don't think it will be too big of a deal for me to wait much longer as I have waited quite a while already. xp

It took me forever to pay of just my head and I ended up feeling like I was annoying my fursuit maker. She was super sweet the whole time and I was so grateful for it as I really felt bad for not getting money to her when I would have liked. She really is a sweetheart!When I buy the paws and tails from her I will be paying all at once xp and then maybe I'll do a full suit but I'm on the fence about it right now :p I have time to figure it out!

I really do want to thank her for it (even though I probably sent a thank you every email) and when I do my unboxing video she will get a TON of thank you's! XD I really just can't wait.

Friday, April 4, 2014

Runzi suit update!

Runzi's hair clip stuff came in and ended up being quite a bit too small. So Gel made a new one and took pictures! I'm only going to show these few though!
Isn't she adorable!? XD
And cute little teeth I forgot to show!

So she is rescheduled to be sent out monday! Gah the wait is awful but I'm glad Gel took these pictures!
I had a dream the other night or unboxing her and trying her on for the first time and it made me so happy. I'm really impressed with her so far and I'll love to see her up close soon!

OMGPineapples is opening really soon so if you like this cute face then go get one of your own! XD

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Life stuff (updates)

So things at my house have gotten pretty crazy. My dad thought he was going to lose his job (my mom only works part time for min wage) so we were worried about our house. He ended up being fine but he got a job offer from an old friend to work with him in Nebraska, I won't go into details but it is an amazing deal! He and my mom (and my lil sis if she can) are going to go visit him and see if they would like the work sometime soon. That means my boyfriend and I may have to either go with them or find somewhere else to live. SO I CAN'T MAKE PLANS TO DO ANYTHING AND IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS.

Also our friends that we were going to go with to Anthrocon have broken up and we don't have a room. Another friend offered room space but I CAN'T MAKE PLANS. I understand why I can't plan on anything because Nebraska is far away and we may end up there but I'm still frustrated by it.

In good news I might have a job! I have a lot of embroidery experience so an embroidery shop near where my kitty works might hire me! :D

ok I think I'm done talking for now! I'll update on my suit when I can!

BIG NEWS (not april fools stuff)

So I have super big news!

Yep that's right Runzi is near completion! Find her maker here: CLICK ME for awesome stuff!!!

I will be posting videos and much more with her when she arrives! Tomorrow she is scheduled to receive finishing touches and get studio photos taken and friday she should be shipped out and I should have her saturday or monday! :D
I'm very excited about this and it almost feels unreal. I haven't been in the fandom long but I have had Runzi since middle school and a character like a fursona since long before that. I really just fell in love with fursuits when I first heard of them and have been an avid suiter since! I will be over the moon when Runzi is here and someday I'll have her be a fullsuit and be just as excited!

Edit: I have fixed the picture sorry! XD

Friday, February 21, 2014

Let the Rollercoaster Begin

Well I'm going to try and condense this post and maybe the next few to explain what's been happening.

My grandmother is very sick and may not be long for this world and I would like to say more but I'm sad and it's a bit too personal right now.

My boyfriend has been out of work but finally found a job just in time for my dad to have to switch jobs so things could be a lot worse than they are.

I worked at the teddy bear factory for this last season and it was pretty fun. I've been out of work for about a week so I'll have to really get looking soon. I've looked a bit but I wanted a little bit of cool down time.

I'm super upset that my dog hasn't come home. He was having joint pain and we were going to take him to the vet but my dad let him out in the morning thinking he was hurting so he wouldn't go far but we think someone picked him up thinking he had gotten loose. So my dog is missing and I'm pissed no one has tried to call us about him yet. we just got him his new tag with our name and number on the back.

Also we were going to move to west VA but now since Zak got the job I think we'll probably just stay here for a while. I'm not sure if that's good or bad yet.

I'm trying to be more positive about my situation so I'm not sure if I'll post more about most of this but here it is so people can be updated on what's happening in my life!